I have done so much reading and research. Ive studied psychology a lot and i know many relating things. What i cant figure out is how to change my destructive habits and bad behaviour. How to stop the pain. No matter what i learn or try i fail. Which only makes my depression worse. I feel so powerless and lost. I sometimes wish everything was over or that i was never born. I have come to the conclusion that even though im intelligent and can solve most problems the one im facing must be unsolvable. I most likely will need medications and that scares me since i dont trust them.
Maybe you need to see a therapist. Having an outside perspective on things can help a lot rather than trying to sift through all your problems on your own.
It probably does take medications, but it definitely takes time and patience.
meds helped me a lot. They keep me safe and I will never stop taking them.
so what, you’ll have a few side effects. It’s not a deal breaker. you need to stay positive.
Honestly, I fill my life with random stuff, music, celebrities, makeup. I can not read and I have stockholm syndrome. I have obsessive thought disorder but you know what, at night when I put my head on my pillow, I sleep like a baby. Thanks god, I have so much to be grateful for and you need to look at the bright side of life no matter what you face. simple pleasures are best.
Id say try not to fight the illness, enjoy yourself and don’t fear
Medicine is usually a good idea.
I would be…maybe even dead if it weren’t for meds. And when it comes to studying psychology, I just graduated with the Chi Beta Phi science award in psychology among other honors (highest GPA in my department). I can’t figure everything out. If I could, people would be lined up at my door to ask me questions and I would need three secretaries.
But really, I refused meds for a year and then took them. Don’t make my mistake of waiting until you nearly die to take medicine.
Yea i feel like ive been on that edge too many times myself. Either from being suicidal or being reckless. I just want things to get better. Congrats on your degree btw. I just study it online i wish i could take more classes but i dont have time or money. Im going to see a psychiatrist next month so i am hoping it wilk help. I need something to cause if not ill probably end up dead. Or somehow somewhere worse.