I can't believe

I can’t believe that all this was useless, all the hard work and sleepless nights I endured while studying for school, college and university. I have a university degree but can’t work or volunteer at all, even very easy jobs. Worse yet, I am stuck in bed and now have cognitive problems like bad concentration, bad memory, no motivation, anhedonia, no emotions/flat affect etc

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I’ll tell you what’s worse. Doing all that studying and then failing to get my degree :sob:

At least you have a degree. I wish I had.

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Yeah, its kind of amazing how quickly it can disappear or at least fade away. It seems that life is a struggle throughout.

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I wish I could work and not have a degree instead. Work is more important and the goal of getting a degree is to work. I feel useless.

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@Aziz, good evening. I can tell you, how schizophrenia is treated by psychiatrist doctor. You are hopefully waiting for a new drug for SZ. But you know this forum don’t allow me to write here.
If you say yes tell me. Then i will tell you the truth of schizophrenia treatment. Wheather i will be blocked by any moderator.

I work as a developer and have a degree in computer science and work is tiring but I just roll with it, you just have to be lucky to have a company that accept you for your strengths and weaknesses. My CV is abit job hoppy but luckily alot of recruiters and employers dont care.

I think what helps me is to have a goal and focus. with my job i’ve sort of felt i’ve reached a peak and im doing the same stuff over and over. I posted in the other thread i’m doing a GCSE Physics course as I only got a C in lower science. What helps me like i say is a focus/goal, perhaps i’ll go back to university to study more, early days yet…

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Maybe things will get better for you. Some people get better from the age of 40. I have an uncle with sz who got stable in his 40s.

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What do you mean by stable? I don’t have any positive symptoms, just negative and cognitive symptoms.

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is your pdoc doing nothing to improve the negatives even a little? Try complaining a lot or switch pdoc. There must be something to alleviate this, maybe switch therapists to one who understands your problem and sends you to a pdoc

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I am on a long waiting list for a pdoc, its been almost 3 months and no call yet. My last pdoc said there is no treatment for negative and cognitive symptoms.

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I also didn’t improve almost anything from the negatives, what is helping me to get around it is rest, energy, high libido and lighter aps. What could be seriously weakening you may be the side effects of your med, which makes you very tired and sluggish

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Yes Abilify was best for energy but it wasn’t good for my positive symptoms and I was very impulsive on it, wasted lots of money.

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It wasn’t useless. It’s just not going to be applied where you originally planned for. Like my chef’s ticket. Like my years of IT training.

Life changes - gotta change with it.

:blush:

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( Ok, thanks. But this is out of reference.). Now I am telling you all, how schizophrenia is treated by a senior psychiatrist doctor. At first when you came to doctor after first episode, doctor overdose you by 7 days injections to control the situation immediately under control. Then doctor change it to high dose of tablets to monitor you. This continues for some years. Sometimes doctor changes your medicine depending on your symptoms. Then reduce your dose. After 4 - 5 years doctor try to talk to you by thought broadcasting, or telepathy (in front of doctor). (If you understand it), then doctor give you medicine according to it. Or in other words, the doctor try to excite your mind to a certain delusional thought ( by telepathy in front of doctor), If you spoken that words, than you are sick. Doctor will continue your medicine. But if you carefully reply by telepathy (in front of doctor) to your problems, then the doctor prescribed you simpler medicine.Then Doctor understand that his patient is gaining strength.

Now I am telling you what is gaining strength. It is the parameters of acceptance and number of human mind involved in your delusion of schizophrenia.

This is the method, i was able to reduced my medicine to 50 mg Amulspride per day. And now off meds.
Thanks.

You said here once that false hope is better than no hope, maybe try to believe that. Also believe in the possible, there are still new meds being released, you may have new pdocs to serve you and more.

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With stable I mean out of the hospital.

Great to hear you don’t have positives. That’s something to be grateful for!

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