Sit here thinking too much
.if i wasnt such a paranoid hallucinating dingbat id leave everyday. I wouldnt care if a bus ran me over at least i did something. Gone. If wizard with staff asks me about my life. Flat out. Who cares.id say who cares.
I wirked tweleve years geit accused of ■■■■
Assumptions. Flat out who cares wizard with staff whio cares. Were dead. Dead.
generally when someone burns out due to monotonous work it means their soul is not doing what is should be. do some soul searching and learn what you would love to do everyday for example if you had a million dollars and didnt need to work for money but you still wanted to work to do something to keep you busy, what would that be?
You called them first and it was discouraging? It did not seem they would help?
I tried that too when I needed help. (how I know)
You still have your appointment in Feb, so you are still not completely with out hope. Your hanging on. I held on too. It is the HARDEST thing to do!
I was also wondering if someone at your respite group maybe able to help?
Could you ask one of them working there to make a call on your behalf? Maybe they could help move your appointment up? or get some kind of “urgent-need-pre crisis-prevention” appointment?
You are worth caring about. I think you are just fustrated to the point of depressed? I know it is hard, but if you can, try to find it in yourself . That bit of stubborness you have, it can work for you instead of against you.
If you have to wait because of the system, then you are worth the wait. I think those who care about you would strongly agree.
It wont be long now till your appointment. Today is Jan. the 29th. Even if it is on the 14th of Feb. then you are already more than half way there.
Dont turn back. Be stubborn. Get what you came all this way for (because your worth it.)