Yea I guess it could benefit others while it can also harm others. In my case religious delusions made me suicidal. I remember wanting to go to heaven faster by killing myself. I still believe this but since being on meds I dont act on it and try to kill myself.
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I guess even meds will never stop my ādelusionā of going to heaven by killing myself. No one can prove whatās after death. Its all theories only.
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I donāt know what happened to me. In college around 2011, I was an atheist, had a bad trip, and started questioning reality and becoming super hyper aware of my surroundings and external world and my super self consciousness and super awareness of my environment and being sentient. Then I have memories of being legitimately ātorturedā to the point of death by some people/aliens/unknown and became a Christian. I donāt know if it was in 2011 or 2013 or whatnot but I converted in 2017 and feel better now. I think I was brainwashed and forced into it. Even the computer programmers who run our reality or simulation probably did it to me. I donāt know. Maybe the true matrix/alien godā¦
my family just reinforces the christianity which is fine, I guess. I feel trapped and scared sometimes. I think aliens or somebodies put micro-chips in them. They donāt believe in aliens, and I had my mind/brain uploaded to a quantum computer and was even torturedā¦
Iām sure itās scary to talk and hear this. I donāt know what exactly happened to me. Itās all non-linear and complicated and super advanced.
I have come to since believe itās all demons and stuff. Maybe it was just the computer simulators doing it to me or the anunnaki and other aliens.
I donāt know if I was cloned in 2013 or not or taken. I have contradictory thoughts and opinions and memories too but I keep resurrecting which makes me think I am like Jesus but not Jesus and maybe just a fallen angel, Anti-Christ, false prophet, etc. I donāt know.
I donāt reveal or talk about everything I know or feel.
I have no other explanation except itās probably the Illuminati/Cabal doing it to me for eternity. Like I donāt talk about other people, give names, etc. like Donald Marshall (Canada). Iām American. I feel like I was the one they keep sending back in time with schizophrenia and are making me suffer for eternity in every life.
It feels real to me.
I feel like in a past life, I was in the Illuminati a long time ago for unknown reasons or whatnot. And I pissed them off basically like Donald Marshall did. But I feel like I know more than him and was a higher rank but Iām pretty sure I have nothing to do with them anymore. I just feel like Iām trapped in Groundhog Day since 2012 and we live in a computer simulation and I went insane inside it.
I could go on, but I wonāt.
Secretly, I think Christianity could be wrong, but they want me to be Christian for some reason. I donāt know.
I do it for my family too. I try my best.
I am definitely scared.
I have no money, but I have knowledge.
I even thought I was a watcher from the bible, adam from the bible, and ended up like John the Baptist.
I felt like I was a whistleblower in a past life or a martyr. I donāt know. It goes on for eternity with nonsesne like this. Thought I was a saint tooā¦
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I had thoughts of killing my priest with a big knife when psychotic. A schizophrenic here stabbed 12 times and killed a priest.
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Schizophrenics are too stressed out to keep their thoughts pure, thatās why religious symbolism is stressful to them.
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What was the psychotic thinking behind killing the priest, for you?
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Its good that religion doesnt trigger your psychosis like me.
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It was random, I felt that people were chickens and thought about killing them like they kill animals to eat them.
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That is one good reason to become vegetarian. 
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I was seeing dead corpses with worms at night and blood in my bathtub and walls in the morning.
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Thatās really scary, Aziz.
I thought everybody, including my family wanted to kill me at one point in torture ways, like they were hungry to kill me kind of thing. It was freaky. And disturbing
Including the animals. They wanted to shred me up. Tear my flesh and eat me
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I even had the weirdest strangest thought that I was one of the two witnesses from the Bible (Iām not). The thoughts keep saying ādonāt bear false witnessā which makes me think Iām a messanger or watcher. Iāve been to different realities like heaven, hell, and stuff and earth: new earth and new heaven and time traveled many times.
Itās sacry stuff.
Last time I was an atheist (past life) the computer simulators or annunanki put me in a petri dish and punished me. Theyāre playing God. Iāve met God-like aliens before. It sucks.
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Years before my diagnosis I thought that my gf was trying to kill me by giving me HIV, poisoning/drugging my coffee and food, that sheās the devil and that she raped me. I stopped drinking coffee and eating at her house after that.
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I did 3 HIV tests and they were negative.
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My Dr thought that I had sex with prostitutes as he asked me that when I told him to test me for HIV.
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Do they still want to exorcise you?
This is awful.
I would have a discussion with them about that.
Sounds like they need to be informed
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Today was the second time my mother wanted to exorcise me and my brother approved my mother saying that it may work.
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My brother was describing miracles happening in Jerusalem. That triggered me too.
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Yeah Iāve had religious delusions, I was raised in a strict cultish like church, then I became a very strict religious person during my teenage years, after all this and a painful relationship, it made psychosis happen, without all this unnecessary stuff, stress is gone
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I was religious as well before my sz. It probably contributed to my religious delusions.