So I need to type this down so I can put my words out there and see where they hit me.
I struggled a lot in the past with delusional thoughts about god, creation, religions and the likes. Yesterday someone here, without intention of doing so, triggered me into those thoughts again. It’s not like I can’t appreciate the benefits religion can bring to a person who lost hope, but for me it’s believing in fairy tales, nothing but a mass delusion to keep is in the comfort of knowing something out there has our backs even if we lose our paths.
The most destructive and malicious people I’ve met were deeply religious, but thought they had their lives saved for believing in god and going to confession. I’m not generalizing, I like the religious folks in here, it’s all good people, and don’t mean to discredit your own belief systems either, these are just observations for my own self, for my own recovery.
I’ve spent the last year and half coming out of these thoughts, struggling to keep afloat from them. It’s not just my grandiose delusion I worry about, but the constant fear of demons being real, and a lot of other stuff often involving delusions of reference mostly.
I have to thank @Azley and @mortimermouse because they, with and without knowing, helped me a lot keeping my feet on the ground with science based thought patterns. I keep my self mentally healthy that way.
This is all to say that my recovery has it’s set backs, yesterday was a terrible day, today is a bit better, tomorrow will be better for sure and some set backs might return in the future. I need to find a way not to be triggered by others beliefs, it’s not my fault, it’s not their fault, it’s just how it is and I don’t want to make people uncomfortable sharing their recovery paths that involve religion.
I’m going to take a walk now, I feel better since I got this off my chest.
Thank you for reading, sorry if I offended anyone and have a great day everyone.