Thanks! I’m impressed you remembered about my car. I just sold it to my mechanic the other day. He’s going to scrap it. I can’t do a lot of stim. In the past it would spike my psychosis. Last night I couldn’t focus and was getting anxious. It was sensory overload. Thank you for saying it’s not my fault. I held off telling my mom I needed to go and then when she said well a little longer, I thought to myself I’m only telling you I need to leave because it’s urgent if I could hold off I wouldn’t have said anything. I know my mom hasn’t seen her friend in a year but my health is more important.
I do have a pdoc that’s I just started seeing. I don’t like her though. I told her the Lexapro is working great but it has sexual side effects. With being in a relationship that’s not good. So she switched me to Brintillex because supposedly that doesn’t have sexual side effects. I pick it up and the pamphlet says causes sexual side effects. I call the pharmacist and she tells me all SSRIs have that side effect. That in a trial study Lexapro and Brintillex compared the same with that side effect, but I might react differently to this new one. Not only that she started me out at 10mg and that’s it that would be my dose. The starting dose is rarely the therapeutic dose. So I didn’t take it. I get horrible panic attacks that last for hours and you want me to transition to a new med that causes the same side effects. Are these doctors on crack?!? Sorry I’m a little peeved about my recent interactions with my pdoc’s office. So she may be the director there but I don’t trust her. I’m going to try to find a private psychiatrist. I feel like I have to play to many games with their office instead of being upfront and honest. “I really need to call the nurse because I’m on a cliff and think I should jump, but I called yesterday” or playing games with how to ask for Klonopin because just the name sends up flags that you must be snorting them and are next going to want xani bars. I’m done. I’m done with community mental health. Sorry I went off there I’m just so frustrated. I hope everything is well with you.