What’s happening to me? Am I okay? What’s the pdoc gonna say? Have I just gotten worse? Can anyone help me? Am I insane? I’m going mad. Will I ever have a job again? Is what I’m experiencing sz or something different? Is this relapse? I’m taking my meds as I should. How much longer do I have to stay in this bed before mom wakes up and we can start our day? I can’t sleep. Help. Help. Help… Help?
I’m sorry you’re going through this @Twialine. Just try to hang tight until morning, when you can call your dr. If you’re currently able to focus well enough to read, I would suggest some light reading followed by another attempt at sleeping. Or you could do some journaling, write down your thoughts. Do some deep breathing. I’m going to bed in a minute myself.
Help… scared… I’ll try to read…
Hi Twialine,
You are going to be okay. Try some deep breaths. Don’t freak out. Can you take a bath or shower? Maybe turn on the radio? Make yourself a hot drink?
T.
I’m trying to wright my thoughts down… scary thing right now… need… train of thought just went out window.
You are going to get through this. I know you must be feeling ghastly but it will be good for you to see your doctor tomorrow and sort out a plan to get you on the road to recovery. Think about writing down what you want to tell the doctor tomorrow.
Idk what to say… mind is not working right atm… it happens at work mostly… got upset cause got sent home early… haven’t thought right since I stopped crying.
It sounds like you had a really stressful day. Yeah work colleagues can be difficult to manage. Sometimes they can take out their frustrations on you just because they are worked up about something that has nothing to do with you. And if you are anything like me when I am feeling fragile I take it all way too much to heart.
If I don’t/Can’t fix myself I’m gonna be fired…
Don’t worry about the big picture right now. Just focus on calming yourself down and getting some sleep if you can. The doctor tomorrow will be able to talk through your options with you. And yes there are always options out there even if things look a little bleak right now.
Storm is calmer… still spinning from it though… brain hurts…
Ok. I hope you start to feel more yourself soon.
Hugs.
T.
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You should see what i am doing, the demiurge itself is in my front yard in the form of a tree just staring at me. Boldly showing me it’s malevolence it grins at me.
No joke, some other form of life is out there showing itself to me.
It’s not killing me but it knows what the sight of it is doing to me all the same.
This is recorded in one of tolkien’s novels and i didn’t know it. He wrote if melkor looks at you you go mad, twas true twas true it was.
Just the sight of him burns your soul let alone what he can do to you.
I’m out there shivering like a rabbit in a wolf’s mouth.
I go through the same things, I get worse at time then it goes away, Thankfully I work for myself, but customers have stopped using my service at times.
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