I have chaos in my mind. No straight thoughts. They rush by and won’t stay for long. My anxiety is going through the roof. I have dr appt in a month. My pdoc is on sick leave and I need to see a new one. I hate it. It adds to the anxiety. I’m seeing my nurse in a week. I don’t like her. Or rather I don’t understand her. I’m terrified I’m getting worse. I do well at work but I feel like I have a tornado in my head. I just sit and wait for it all to explode and then I’m in hospital again and my life ends. My work is my life. I can’t lose it. I will if I go psychotic at work again. I feel like I’m waiting for something big to happen.
I slept two hours in 2 days. My brain halts and I can’t think.
My brain halts and I can’t think.
That’s thought block, and is a sign of relapse. Time to visit hospital I think.
Try and get some sleep even if you have to take a sleeping pill. We have to get enough sleep with this illness. I would go and see a psychiatrist if I were you even if it is a new doctor. You should really not be hard on yourself. Take a few days off at work if that is possible. I hope you get well soon.
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I’ll try to sleep first. See if it helps.
I have a crisis plan on my whiteboard. I’ll check that out tomorrow.
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I really hope you’re feeling better soon @Comatose. Sorry I don’t have any advice to give.
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Try to maintain strength. You can do it.
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Don’t panic. Treat it like any other problem to solve and step by step do what you have to do. Take as much time off of work as you can/think you’ll need. Sleep! And see a therapist/psychiatrist/whomever is going to help you. You can get through this. It doesn’t ever have to be a relapse. Take good care of yourself and make that a priority. 
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How are you feeling today @Comatose ?
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Is today better or worse? I guess a better question is did you sleep? No sleep for too many weeks in a row and into the hospital. I just got out of the hospital again! Never going back.
A lot of anxiety. I woke up every hour tonight. I have an appt with my nurse and psychologist on tuesday. I’ll try to hang on until then. thoughts are racing. Hard to think. Bad thing is I need to be at work. Vacation times. People are on vacation and we are short of people. I’ll try to calm down. Take one thing at a time. One thing at a time.
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Sorry you’re having such a tough time, if you can’t handle it go to the ER.
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