Could it be possible that I might have severe Narcissistic Personality Disorder?
History of long-term delusions of grandeur
History of being abusive
Childish empathy and remorse
Envy others better than me
Pathological jealousy on people who are much better than me
Could it be that I got that from my former bullies? I was bullied for lacking social skills, was called “Stupid”, “Loser” and “Idiot” for that in elementary school, and I asked my former elementary school teachers why and they said that I deserved it, because I was strange and lacked social skills at that time.
But then I kind of became a bit antisocial and had inferiority complex and later had a severe delusions that I am much better than people with more severe intellectual disabilities and I made fun of my former friend and girl friend (two people) for being beneath me. I know what I did is not okay, but I developed that pathological narcissism from my former bullies and passed it on to my former friends.
I feel guilty for having that delusions of grandeur, I am sorry! I feel hopeless, because Narcissistic Personality Disorder is considered to be a life long mental disorder and I just hate that, because I am trying to proof that I can change overtime.
Talk to your doctor about it. You really don’t want someone as dysfunctional as me diagnosing you. There’s also the fellow here who self-diagnoses as an egg and a potato and who can crash any network by mentioning turtles (@LevelJ1). Dude is totally sus - don’t let him try and diagnose you as a hippo. That means he’s after your Pop Tarts.
(The scary part is that the above makes sense if you’ve been around here for a while.)
I don’t think you’ve got that… I thought I had that because of similar things… Narcissism is really nasty and close to sadism really… Not that people can help it…much … If you think or worry you have narcissism you probably don’t xx they don’t worry about having narcissism