I saw my pdoc at ten yesterday. we discussed a nightmare I had (not a night terror, those are controlled with meds)
In the nightmare a group of faceless, raceless people ziptied me to a chair, forced me to watch as they tortured my dogs to death, then over the course of six months, tortured me, and force fed me my own dogs.
I experienced EVERY second of the nightmare as if it was happening real time and not in a dream. It felt so real that when I woke up, I thought waking up was the dream. It was actually bad enough, I wet the bed. The things they did to me in the dream…were beyond description.
My Pdoc is not sure if the nightmare is a symptom or not, but since the nightmare I have had all the other symptoms of PTSD.
The worst part of the dream wasn’t even the torture, it was being found barely alive on the side of the road, left for dead, finding out the people who tortured me had posted the months of abuse on the internet, yet no one believed me when I said what had happened to me. they kept saying all my wounds were self inflicted, and obviously the result of my mental illness.
I lived for a full year after the torture (in the dream) and eventually died from complications of what was done to me.
It was like nothing ive ever experienced before in a dream. It was actually so bad I don’t even think they would make it into a movie…(but hey Hollywood will make ANYTHING into a movie if they think it will make money)