My pdoc compared psychosis to what in my language we call a “laugh mirror”. It is the mirrors they have at a fun fair, which reflect your image in a distorted way…taller, with thicker parts, etc. He says psychosis shows real fears and worries in a similarly distorted way. And it can be important to look at what is the real fear or issue underneath the delusion.
For me, psychosis showed me my thinking patterns, and resultant emotions that I had not been solving but pushing aside. And so they built up until they resurfaced through psychosis.
To me it’s like my attic is so full of boxes that need to be sorted that the ceiling broke. And that is psychosis to me.
Maybe our fears are exaggerated like a laughing mirror on purpose in order to startle me into change. But I don’t know how I feel about that, using fear to create a drive in me :((
Maybe that’s just life… For me.
Fear is not the only drive though, fortunately, but it does seem to be one of them.