So this is kind of embarrassing, but I intend for this to be a serious topic.
I suffer from long term psychosis that stems from drug abuse. Now, I used to use methamphetamine and masturbate compulsively, which incidentally was when I had my first psychotic break.
Now I’m clean and sober, and I’m on medication that has all but eradicated the psychosis. However, the only time I get psychosis is during sexual arousal or masturbation. I hear people saying things like “omg he’s jacking off” or laughing at me. I live in a sober living home with a lot of people so sometimes I feel like it might actually be the other residents, but I have no real reason to believe that. I haven’t noticed the psychosis during sexual intercourse, however.
I guess my question is why does my psychosis seem so specific to this? And is there anyway besides medication to overcome this? Has anybody else experienced psychosis that seems to stem solely from your sexual identity?