I guess it helps, but no matter how weird some of the other people are I always feel like odd man out. I guess I should be grateful I am able to sit in a roomful of people and not emberass myself. But it’s the same old sinking feeling that everybody knows the games and is always one step ahead of me. How the heck did people get like that? I would actually admire that if it didn’t drive me batty.
I think people think it is all a big game and I am in on it. I think they are having fun and they think I am too. There was a super cute girl there. I liked her but at the same time I hated her. Every time I looked at her she was making cutesy faces and smug faces. I paid too much attention to her but boy was she cute. And she liked the attention she got when she made me mad, but it seemed like everybody was doing it. Frustration to the max. BUT… I made it to two different groups this week. That’s something isn’t it?