Have you ever experienced sexual abuse or harassment as a psychotic experience? (I.e. Tactile, auditory, visual, etc hallucinations of being abused or harassed) If so, (and if you feel comfortable!) could you also state in the comments what you thought at the time was abusing you? (Such as believing it was aliens, demons, people, or no specific thing)
Yes, and I have also experienced sexual abuse outside of psychosis
Yes, and I have had no history of sexual abuse outside of psychosis
I’ve seen several other posts on here talking about people experiencing this and then @mortimermouse said it wasn’t a rare thing so I was interested in how many others have experienced this.
When I have a hypogogic hallucination, it’s usually my brother or his friends coming into my bedroom and pinning me down. Sometimes it’s ghosts. I once made Fiance go get holy water so we could bless his house and get rid of all the rape ghosts.
This is mainly about hallucinations which are traumatic. Well, rest assured, breaks from reality of any sort are traumatic. For example, you know LSD flashbacks? You know how they’re because LSD gets released in the body? Total tomfoolery. There is no such thing. We perceive breaks from reality as truly traumatic.
It’s just a normal traumatic flashback to when reality disintegrated.
What is weird here is that it’s double trauma! It’s a break from reality and from there to abuse! I have nightmares like this; I have recurrent nightmares of being interrogated. Seems real as can be.
What can be done is more intensive treatment with medication. Check out prazosin, it is for PTSD and is supported in empirical studies to be a legit treatment for nightmares and sleep quality disturbances in clearly traumatized people.
Well we are all traumatized to certain extents. Consider if you would really be willing to take another med for sleep disturbances and trauma- it treats both.
The most relevant research has been done on Afghanistan veterans and it works for them.
I tried prazosin. It didn’t help me sleep, didn’t stop my flashbacks or nightmares. It did throw off my blood pressure and make it so I almost passed out whenever I stood up though. Guhh
Ativan and Trazodone combined help make my nights normal though. But I really want to get off the benzo.
At the beginning of my psychosis I beleived my cousin and friends had spiked my drink and rapped me. These kind of delusions continued until it had become obvious now that I am being abused by spirits. They call them tactile hallucinations and I can hear them talk and breath through me and I also feel them inside. No longer a delusion but a reality. They were like flashbacks I thought they were real.
I experienced sexual abuse as kid … When i was 6, the bf of my sister was coming to me when we were alone and he was masturbating… Lately, i remembered, that he was showing me some porn videos too… I didn’t speak about this till my twenties… Idk if it played in my illness… But in the past, i was experiencing aversion from some men who was looking physically as him… Not nice… I went quite disabled emotionally in my illness i find…
… When i was 6, the bf of my sister was coming to me when we were alone and he was masturbating… Lately, i remembered, that he was showing me some porn videos too… I didn’t speak about this till my twenties… Idk if it played in my illness… But in the past, i was experiencing aversion from some men who was looking physically as him… Not nice… I went quite disabled emotionally in my illness i find…