Aren’t you just torturing yourself flirting with ideas and concepts that could be seen as delusional which can be interpreted as being ill by many? All the while ruminating on what others think of you as a means of self justification in a place where practically everyone here is on the psychosis spectrum.
Are you just toying with us or yourself? Do you even know?
Well, it really depends on the question. When discussing ideas and thought experiments I’m having fun of the strictly ‘intellectual’ sort, and it doesn’t matter who comes up with the better or wittier idea, it’s the process and the prospect of arriving at some of truth, however tentative, that motivates me. I much prefer someone disagreeing with me for good cause that someone agreeing for the wrong reasons.
That said, I also enjoy using a host of rhetorical techniques -including those typically associated with trollish behaviour- for purely hedonic purposes, but even then I tend to analyse the data thus collected. It’s fun!
I read between the lines in your posts, and you do break boundarys now and again - for what i personally wouldnt find socially acceptable, but i see it that your just on a different learning curve to me.