I need help to find words to explain to my husband how / why I struggle with tasks, the big ones like cleaning badroom.
I think it is part of it is executive functioning that my doctor said doesn’t work well. I still don’t know my nailed down diagnosis.
I am not well at all lately - as far as my brain functioning the way I need it to. Problem is I push way too hard and stay optimistic and looking way better than I am. It’s beyond what anyone sees at all. So it’s pretty unbelievable / odd / baffling ’ that a smart woman like me has trouble with looking at a kitchen tk tidy and doing the dishes loading dishwasher. Or cleaning a bedroom overdue fir tidying on my own - needing his help. Everything is overwhelming right now.
Note - I am NOT lazy at all. I am probably working as or close as hard / much tjme as him while holding my breath. It’s going to kill me. No matter how much I explain everyone forgets.
I do a lot of tasks and work hard I float around going from task tk task. Well beyond. I am really sad about this. I don’t feel much anymore but this gets me feeling a little desperate to get away from everyone. From pressure. Maybe from myself not understanding too and sad that I can’t do anything like before. I find even watching a tv show overwhelming.
Please help me explain how or why. I have a lot of issues right now with my condition and I get to do nothing for hours when alone through week but weekends are very hard bc I have a family. Thanks
Schizophrenia is one of the most disabling disorder. It is not your fault or a character flaw. You might too suffer the side effects of anti-psychotics.
Hope this helps.
I dont know how you can explain, but I understand. It is difficult to make people understand how you struggle to get things done, especially if you look sort of okay on the outside. Can your pdoc/nurse help explain that it is part of the illness and/or meds and not you being lazy? Maybe that has more impact on him than if you keep on repeating it?