Philosophical Zombie Delusion--Need Help

I figure I’m either a p-zombie (was, I’m conscious now), a clone, or my consciousness was overwritten by another me. I suffer badly because I know I wasn’t around most of my life. Sometimes, I think the universe was just created a few years ago. Who has the ability to do this besides God? How do I overcome this delusion? How do I comprehend and move forward?

I’m into philosophy and I believe I’m in a simulation and that dualism is true. In one of my lives, I remember my soul or consciousness traveling through outer space and going into my body.

Furthermore, how can my mind be uploaded to a computer if dualism is true? Thanks.

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In 2011, when I had my psychotic break it was pretty awful. I remember thinking and believing I was dead, a ghost, and a zombie. In my first life, I was conscious during most of the ordeal. It lasted hours. I kept thinking I wasn’t real over and over again. I was so scared that God existed. It was pretty traumatizing.

It has been billions of lives since then. Same ■■■■, same story. I wonder if I went through a portal or something. Most of my DP/DR comes from this. In my first life I might have went insane. I’m not insane anymore.

Furthermore, I might not have gone crazy without outside intervention.

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You are very ill. The day I stopped thinking about reincarnation was a really good day. Just don’t dwell on these thoughts.

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A lot of details around to be a simulation!

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I think @TheBest is right. You’re basically living in a dreamworld. Have you spoken to your doctor about these delusions?

When I’m off meds I slip into my own little dreamworld.

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I don’t think I’m crazy. I have anxiety about living in a sim and not being real. I remember it being on the news. I take medication and it works. It’s like taking meds because you believe the grass is green. Eventually, the lie isn’t working anymore. I know what’s real and it scares me. Sorry if I’m offending you. It is like society is punishing me for speaking the truth.

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What meds and dose are you on if you don’t mind me asking ?

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Vraylar 4.5 mg.

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That’s a theraputic dose. But vraylar may not be the med for you. When I was on seroquel it did nothing for me but some people swear by it.

In fact I was living in a tortured dream like state similar to the one you described.

I’d have a frank and honest talk to your psychiatrist. Tell them all the stuff you’ve just told us. (Don’t worry they’ve heard it all before)

I hope they then change your meds. But it’s up to your psychiatrist.

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Vraylar is the only med that works for me. I’m doing pretty good. I might actually get off meds someday. I can’t be productive on them. Thanks for your concern.

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I’ve told them everything and more.

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Oh geez. That’s dissapointing then. Very dissapointing. At least to me.

It can’t be easy living with these beliefs.

The problem with this disease is, when you’re ill you don’t recognise it. It’s a horrible disease.

Maybe you could discuss a dose increase with them? The max dose is 6mg so you’re under that at the moment.

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Wow, this delusion seems more crazy than mine! If you want to overcome it just ignore all the crazy stuff of your head, ignore your voices and take your medication, nothing bad is gonna happen to you

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I used to believe that this reality was a simulation, where some people were basically AI who are on earth just to give it more character (and I had weird experiences where people would say “happy!” or “one hundred” or “help” randomly, which seems computer-y), but as my treatment progressed it stopped happening.

I feel like I’m mostly in the real world now.

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Stub your big toe into a table corner. Hurts like a sob. That’s how you know you’re real.

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Simulations don’t have a conscious. They aren’t aware if they exist. Descartes duality has been debunked by modern day medical science. The closest thing you could be in is virtual reality but you’d be aware of that and would have to shut off the virtual reality to eat and poop.

I relate to what you wrote. Glad you’re getting better.

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Been there, done that. I already almost died from being overmedicated. Less meds but some meds seem to do me well. It’s a balance of meds working and functioning.

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Could be the energy drinks/caffeine.

I don’t suffer much anymore. It’s more like my thoughts are discomforting to others. Its been 7 years of this stuff. I feel 99% real.