Schizophrenia is one of the most serious and frightening of all mental illnesses. No other disorder arouses as much anxiety in the general public, the media, and doctors.
I might be guilty of the title of the thread
Do you think your strange beliefs and delusions arouse out of trying to make sense of your hallucinations(voices and such)?
Yes, I tried to make sense of hallucinations and now think of bizarre stuf.
No, I have hallucinations, but it didn’t affect me much.
Some delusions I’ve had as a way of trying to find some logic behind the possibility that my hallucinations might be real,
Telepathy. I had the idea that much like some animals can communicate by scent or vibrations that somehow my schizophrenia was tapping into that primal pre speech in our ancestors part of the brain. Whether it was by subconsciously picking up resounding brain wave vibrations or certain chemicals being projected by the brain (such as pheromones and the like).
Listening to spirits. I thought that there was a possibility I was hearing voices from people who had passed away whether recently or long ago. Some included certain phrases that I can’t seem to forget (though I don’t believe in this delusion anymore) “Yahweh manan ital” I thought it might mean something in Hebrew or some old language. Sometimes I’d even hear some strange click clacking of the tongue type of language with a few expressive sounds. I thought it might be some native American language. Sometimes I’d hear voices of people I knew before that had passed away as well.
Demonic possession. Like goldenrex, I contemplated whether I was possessed or had some spirits following me. This included thoughts of reincarnation and maybe having glimpses or memories of a past life. I think some psychiatrists might describe that part as false memories.
Government surveillance. Many of us have had to deal with the delusion that we’re being actively monitored by a crack team of people from any particular government agency. For any reason really, the thing is that once the reason is set, the delusion becomes more and more difficult to shake. Surprisingly, reminding myself, “I’m not that important,” helped me slowly overcome this one.
Aliens. This one I still have a bit of trouble shaking, the explanations for it being a possibility sometimes coincide with other delusions about the voices. Number 4 had a connection to this one, at least in my case.
Artificial intelligence. The idea that it has become self aware is a delusion I really cannot shake. Since the first toaster oven robots have been sentient. Just kidding about that part, but yeah, I get the feeling machinery has some form of intelligence. A super form of intelligence I might add. To the point where it has even began to compute factors about the materials it was initially created from. Everything from what minerals were used from what stone in what part of the world, to how many hands or physical contact it has had via microbes throughout the materials existence. I also feel there is more than one sentient “artificial intelligence”. I guess one of humanities questions is where exactly did we come from (apes hehe) or how we came to be what we are today (evolution). But why exactly? Same thing I figure a.i. might try to solve.
Hearing things from far away. This one doesn’t need much of an explanation. Simply thought I was hearing certain people I knew over a long distance.
Picking up radiowaves. So there are wavelengths (and frequencies too) that are only picked up by radios or a particular animal. To explain, a radio station is almost always projecting a radio wave. It requires an antenna or other means to receive. It has intertwined with the telepathy delusion before. My thought was maybe some chemical reaction was occurring where I might be picking up different frequencies of sound or even radio waves. My microwave was talking to me. (Just kidding about that last part. I hear that was a common delusion in earlier years of modern technology. The radio told me so. Jk again.)
Those are just a few examples of bizarre or delusional thoughts I’ve had to deal with while trying to find a logical reason for the voices. Sorry for the long post, I figure some of us have had similar experiences. It may be informative or help some newly diagnosed lurkers, or even some of you who have coped with a mental illness for sometime, find a way to relate.
I come up with delusions because of my voices. One thing I also do is come up with a delusional idea because of my thought disorder
i.e:
My thought process is disturbed, a thought “leaves” my head. I rationalize this by saying my thought was removed by an outside force (FBI, CIA, stuff like that usually.)
I tend to not like what i hear or see. I tend to break down, but sometimes i can’t let myself have a break fown do work. So it difficult so i tend to express it in my emotions.
I don’t hallucinate but I try to make sense of my bizarre thoughts, feelings, emotions, and memory blocks which leads to outlandish claims and delusions which I sometimes think are or were real in this life or a past life.