Feel so inadequate never seem to do anything right, can’t please husband enough, I’m not good enough, I hate myself, I loathe myself, I’m disgusting I have disgusting character and I’m ugly
My life is without meaning, I’m just preparing for death
Can’t seem to stay up after sunrise and struggle to get up before 10am want to sleep all morning and I hate this. Is it my meds or am I just lazy? I’m so tired and I can’t seem to help it. And husband doesn’t like it or seem to understand.
Have this grief over my past life, missing the things I used to do but have no motivation to do it. Other things I miss but have no place in my religion eg music. Feel cut off from the world. Miss my family and my past life with my parents. Grieving for it all. Lost so much.
My life is empty. Meaningless. Cannot cope with beurocracy of people, all the things we need to live which animals don’t eg licenses, IDs, money, banks, documents etc. People are so fake. Fake food, messing up the earth, too reliant on technology and not on nature, no sense of community anymore.
No support for me and hubby and our illnesses. If hubby gets ill with seizures or paranoid delusions I have to bear it alone. I’m so sad. Wish I could move to a country town where people more decent like my parents did. It’s so far to visit them and they’re getting old, I’m worried about them dying.
Too much things I just can’t cope with…
Anxiety returned and I feel sense of dread with things I have to be forced to cope with.
Losing my appetite over the last week’s, can’t cope with a lot of food anymore. Lost interest in food and coffee which used to be my favourite drink. Now I don’t care anymore
