I feel like I have relapsed. I have become depressed again, irritable, blank, dead, and I wanna cut. No voices though, but I have a monster inside me waiting to come out. I have problems and I cant face them. My husband and I are struggling to keep us together because of me and my problems. I have to see a pdoc again, my husband would like that too. Today I just wanna sleep and never wake up. I’m angry with God for making such s**t happen in the world and I feel he wants to get me too and bring me down. Everythings looking down for me at the moment. I feel trapped. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
Just remember, you can get through this. There will be times when you won’t feel so defeated. Maybe you could try different med’s. Don’t cut yourself. That is giving in to the pull of a downward spiral. You want to keep your head above water. It might be hard at first, but learn how to swim. Remember that people care. You’re not alone in this. Don’t be afraid to express your feelings on this site.
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Dont give up @Hadeda - Maybe its time to call up your pdoc for a Med Adjustment, dont cut whatever you do, its not a good solution.
I think I know what the problem was - I started my period today, so the female hormones were raging. Aaargh! I feel a bit better now.
Thanks Crimby and Wave for your support 
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I understand the hormones thing. I didn’t have my period for almost three years and finally I had one and it was terrible. I was moody, irate, crying over everything and depressed.