Mother changed our insurance, now I have a Pdoc that accepts my plan. I liked my old one well enough, but she’s saving $1,700 a month for the same level of care. Go covered California!
I’m not sure if I want to adjust my meds. I’m on 15mg of Zyprexa a day, and still getting some breakthroughs. I’m not a danger to myself or others, I’m just having to deal with symptoms every day.
I’m working my tools, and would prefer to not be more medicated. I wonder if it’s enough. Clozapine is on the table if I wanted it. Maybe.
I don’t know, I’m just finding it all to be enough, I’m tired, I want to be done, but I have to see to others, need to travel this path as far as I can. If not for myself, then for them.
Another 36 years of this doesn’t really sound enticing, even with the promise of pleasures and beautiful moments. I’m tired of choices, and can’t shut my brain down for long enough.
When you remember being infinite and eternal, when you believe you’re a god trapped in a human prison, when it permeates through every day.
Im worried this will be as good as it gets.
Worth talking about I assume, maybe they could help. Im open to the idea.