Pdoc appointment today

Mother changed our insurance, now I have a Pdoc that accepts my plan. I liked my old one well enough, but she’s saving $1,700 a month for the same level of care. Go covered California!

I’m not sure if I want to adjust my meds. I’m on 15mg of Zyprexa a day, and still getting some breakthroughs. I’m not a danger to myself or others, I’m just having to deal with symptoms every day.

I’m working my tools, and would prefer to not be more medicated. I wonder if it’s enough. Clozapine is on the table if I wanted it. Maybe.

I don’t know, I’m just finding it all to be enough, I’m tired, I want to be done, but I have to see to others, need to travel this path as far as I can. If not for myself, then for them.

Another 36 years of this doesn’t really sound enticing, even with the promise of pleasures and beautiful moments. I’m tired of choices, and can’t shut my brain down for long enough.

When you remember being infinite and eternal, when you believe you’re a god trapped in a human prison, when it permeates through every day.

Im worried this will be as good as it gets.

Worth talking about I assume, maybe they could help. Im open to the idea.

:llama:

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Whatever happens, I hope that the appointment goes to your liking. Good luck! (hug) :relaxed:

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Good luck with your appointment. I know you don’t want more meds but you might feel better, it might be worth it to try.

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Good luck. I really hope this new dr is kind and listens well. Maybe you can come up with a good solution together

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Best of luck with the new psychiatrist :four_leaf_clover:

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good luck with the appointment!

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Went well. He spent about 45 minutes with me, got my pills refilled. Seemed very nice. I’m good.

Told him about what’s going on, he thinks I’ll take a lot from my new MFT, that appointment is on the 25th. She specializes in psychosis and addiction. Looking forward to it.

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