Paranoia and hallucinating

Unusual Beliefs
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I don’t know where I should be posting this so I’m posting it here… And I feel like I’m just going to annoy you all by sharing my problems with you, but I came to this website because I have nobody to talk to this about.

The last 3 nights have been hell for me. It starts up at the same time every night and my mind is seriously torturing me now. I’m just about to drift off to sleep and a few seconds before I go unconscious, I hear something, either random noises or talking. And this happens all throughout the night, hard to close my eyes either… Strange hallucinations there too… So I gave up trying to sleep… Now I’m sitting here, all lights on at 5am, afraid to look beside me and see something, afraid to look up. So I try to draw but I have a constant feeling someone is watching me, and give up… Now I’m terrified.
I’m 17 and I haven’t been diagnosed with schizophrenia, but I’ve felt this way occasionally ever since I was 4 but never for this long, it wouldn’t be constant, but it’s been 3 days of paranoia and seeing/hearing things. and there’s nothing I can do to stop it and I feel miserable now. I don’t even know what I’m experiencing is schizophrenia…I’ve been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, but my moods haven’t been changing, just depressed and detached from everyone lately… I don’t want to do the things I like anymore, actually it’s more like I can’t. I’m not on any meds anymore although I have a doctors appointment on the 12th, I want to tell him these things but if it doesn’t stop I don’t think I can wait that long… I can’t even take a shower, I feel there’s someone in there ‘out to get me’. This is the worst feeling ever and I hate slipping into these states.
Sorry for the long rant and if I posted this in the wrong board.

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Hi Kirstie, sorry to hear you are suffering. At least it’s just manifested over three nights. Perhaps your Dr could prescribe you a sleep aid. At least that way the night episodes couldn’t take place and sleep is essential for good mental health. I think symptoms have to have been present for over six months before a diagnosis is made so don’t worry and try looking on the up side. Best wishes, mouse1977

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  1. Get a copy of this book and read it and have your family read it, as well. (Torrey can be a bit totalistic and unwilling to see exceptions to his “rules” at times, but most of the book is really worth the effort to plough through.)
    http://www.amazon.com/Surviving-Schizophrenia-6th-Edition-Family/dp/0062268856
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  2. Get properly diagnosed by a board-certified psychopharmacologist who specializes in the psychotic disorders. One can find them at…
    http://doctor.webmd.com/find-a-doctor/specialty/psychiatry and https://psychiatrists.psychologytoday.com/rms/
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  3. Work with that “psychiatrist” (or “p-doc”) to develop a medication formula that stabilizes their symptoms sufficiently so that they can tackle the psychotherapy that will disentangle their thinking.
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  4. The best of the psychotherapies for that currently include…
    DBT – http://behavioraltech.org/resources/whatisdbt.cfm
    MBSR – http://www.mindfullivingprograms.com/whatMBSR.php
    MBCT - http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/22340145
    ACT – https://contextualscience.org/act
    10 StEP – http://pairadocks.blogspot.com/2015/04/the-10-steps-of-emotion-processing.html
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  5. the even newer somatic psychotherapies like…
    MBBT – https://www.newharbinger.com/blog/introduction-mind-body-bridging-i-system
    SEPT – https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Somatic_Experiencing
    SMPT – https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sensorimotor_psychotherapy
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  6. or standard CBTs, like…
    REBT – https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rational_emotive_behavior_therapy
    Schematherapy – https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schema_Therapy
    Learned Optimism – https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Learned_optimism
    Standard CBT – http://www.beckinstitute.org/what-is-cognitive-behavioral-therapy/About-CBT/252/
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  7. If you/she/he needs a professional intervention to get through treatment resistance, tell me where you live, and I will get back to you with leads to those services.
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  8. Look into the RAISE Project at https://www.google.com/webhp?sourceid=chrome-instant&ion=1&espv=2&ie=UTF-8#q=raise%20program%20schizophrenia.
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Sorry to hear your having a hard time… I was 17 when I ended up getting diagnosed.

Unlike you… I didn’t talk to my doc… didn’t tell him how bad things were and tried to self medicate.

Things got worse for me.

I hope you can talk to your doc and feel better soon.

Good luck.