Sorry to hear you feeling bad @Joker Hope the pdoc gets a better med sorted out for you. There’s days I feel useless too so I kind of understand a little.
Terrible to hear you’re struggling. In my opinion the best way to cope is to throw yourself in at the deep end. I’ve done the same of late. And work has helped me immensely it keeps my mind off all the imaginary things. If My brain is overly occupied I’m not hearing voices etc
I’m sorry you’re suffering so much, it’s hard to find drive when people try their best to succeed.
I hope you find your drive as soon as you can tho.
Sometimes I feel the same, like what do I need to do more to have some self esteem and success on my daily life. It’s been more than 7 years since I started aps, and even so I did not find my winning meds combo.