That I smoked weed.
It was a terrible mistake - I know myself, I will need at least several months to feel better, the way I felt before smoking weed.
I am angry on myself.
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Lesson learned.
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I feel like a stupid a**!!! @77nick77
It’s hard to explain… In my country it’s also very bad quality and strong weed.
And I knew I will feel worse in a long term, and I still did that. I am truly angry on myself and my brother… more on myself. I shouldn’t act that way
I had a Delta 9 THC sparkling water in May and I had some more in June. Only one high felt good in June. The last time I had one was June 28th. I don’t think I’ll drink them anymore. Marijuana is legal here in Minnesota but I don’t know exactly when they’ll start selling it in my area. Sometime next year probably. I read today’s marijuana has a lot more THC in it than it did decades ago and can cause schizophrenia and psychosis so I’m not going to smoke it anymore. I haven’t smoked any for ten years.
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I did the same thing a month or so ago. Still recovering 
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It’s bulls****. I don’t get why most ppl can use weed whenever they want, while for me it’s few times and I feel worse. @AKendrick
I will have full hallucinations delusions smoking weed.
I had this happen before diagnosis and after. Only smoked a few times under social pressure.
It’s not something I ever want to do again.
I have never experienced what normal people experience smoking weed whatever feeling good feels like.
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Im With you on that… I like a slight buzz but we just can’t use it…
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I experience both positive feelings while smoking it, but symptoms also. It’s the reason why I repeated this mistake. I thought it will bring only good mood, laughter, but it also brought hallucinations.
After week without smoking I understand how it affected me. I feel terribly anxious, tired and etc. @Kxev
I also read in internet that if u experience hallucinations or delusions or whatever ((psychotic symptoms)) while on weed, u should never smoke it
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That must be confusing if you experience a mood lifter.
Makes sense you might be swayed to try it.
Don’t be angry at yourself for making the mistake.
I wouldn’t know even how it feels to think about the risk vs benefit of smoking.
So when I get offered or asked, often from my spouse cause he is a daily smoker and wishes I can experience what he does, sometimes he forgets what’s he’s seen happen to me when he has talked me into smoking in the past.
I think its cause he is feeling good from smoking it and thinks I will get good feelings and emotions from it since I am have blunt effect and wants to see me feel happy. But I have to keep reminding him NO.
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Mistakes are a part of life 
learn from it and move on
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You’ll feel better sober in the end.
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I know. I was many years sober, I just slipped.
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I find it very difficult to pass the time, dysphoric all the time, that’s where weed comes in.
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Id rather smoke marijuana than put an ounce of liquor in my system. 
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I can’t handle any amount of THC. Weed is legal here and about a year ago i tried an edible with 5mg of THC. The whole world started folding in my vision like origami, and i felt like i couldn’t walk! It was a bad experience, I’ll never use any amount of THC again. I don’t see how people can use it daily at all.
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That sucks nectar. Of all the stupid stuff I’ve done, smoking weed is not something I regret. It has major benefits, just gotta be careful with it as a schizophrenic
Were you like chronic? Like couldn’t stop even if you tried?
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When I was a teenager, yeah. I spent many months smoking everyday.
Right now I can stop easily. But it has bad effect on me:/ honestly I just start hallucinating if I smoke too much.
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@anon8411913 yeah I know how it feels having habits you never even wanted
It sucks
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