I remember when I was ill EVERYTHING meant something…it was so exhausting and I hardly ever slept…so upset and lost all the time…thank goodness I’m not delusional anymore…nothing but what I want to believe is the way it is now…as it should be…do you remember being exhausted from your belief system?
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Yes, I remember that. As you say, thankfully that’s in the past for me too.
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I remember that. When I first started recovering, I missed it. Real life seemed so mundane. So I worked to make my life fun and interesting. Now, I like my real life, and don’t miss the delusional one.
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Yes. I live in a continuous state of terror when my insight is blown. It takes a toll.
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ive experienced both. everything having delusional meaning and also nihilistic meaninglessness where everything in life is pointless and that there is nothing meaningful to do
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I had that. Sounds of cars and the environment everything had meaning. It wasn’t just noise.
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Yeah it was the same for me. Adverts on tv, music on the radio, what films were being shown all had a meaning to me. I thought people/government were after me and were gonna kidnap me. It was exhausting to say the least. Now it feels like I’m just drifting through life with no real reason. It’s better than having full blown psychosis though.
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thats a good way to put it
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Me too. I guess it’s a common trait of psychosis.
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I think I’m starting to experience something like that. The last few weeks have been strange at times… like the world isn’t out to get me. I’ve noticed a peace but like no drive to do anything. But I think the last couple of days I’ve been slipping back into false reality because of new meds or taking fun herbs …
When/ if I stabilize again I’m gonna try and push myself to do things. I really hope I’m not stuff in this ■■■■■■ up alt world forever 
Being without fear has shown me I’ve had little insight through most of the last 8 years …
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Yes they were very exhausting. But nothing horrendous to me like the negative symptoms. The feelings of nothing the joy of nothing. The inability to move. Just wanting to do nothing for three months straight. And to have delusions with Chronic negative symptoms. Life means so much more to me with either of these symptoms positive or negative. Life actually had no meaning to me with delusions and extreme negative symptoms. There is so much freedom in life without positive or negative symptoms. And I love freedom.
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glad you’re better man… @Dude1
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I’m so glad you’re doing OK too. You always seem to stay true to yourself. And that helps me also see things which are true to me.
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@Dude1 aw thanks man !! I feel great these days…spiritual walk…
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