It is not my choice. It changes my fundamental nature, to the point that I can no longer recognize myself. I broke free and I’m being punished for it. Sedated, controlled, silenced. This is one of the only platforms available for me to be truthful about the situation. I don’t recognize my diagnosis as legitimate but I can’t exactly say that to Drs can I? If I stopped taking my medication the alarm bells would ring. It wouldn’t be long before they’d threaten me with that horrible mental health act and imprison me again. Feeling completely alienated by my society folks,. Any wanderers wondering Why?
This isn’t the platform for people that want to rail against medication. We are a pro-med and pro-science forum.
But, if you stick around, you may learn something.
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Welcome to the forum. There is a lot of knowledge here. 
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I don’t necessarily think being anti meds is being anti science. But i respect that if you are a pro-med forum I may be on the wrong site. That being said, I will stick around, share experiences and the like
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Welcome to the forum!
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And thankyou for the warm welcome. Despite my reluctance to acknowledge my schizophrenia as a genuine illness I guess i do qualify and I appreciate that places like this exist for giving people who are suffering from unusual experiences a safe somewhere to communicate
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Welcome to the forum
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Doctors wouldnt give you bad medication. Anti psychotics are good for you
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Welcome to the forum. Yea sometimes the medication is necessary. I want to reduce my dose one day but not yet sure.
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Welcome to the forum
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Welcome aboard!
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Welcome.
I know what you mean— just got back up to 15mg Abilify after a 6ish stint of no meds, and my personality is lackluster it feels.
But it’s either that or Square One, and Square One sucks sometimes.
Hang in there, and hopefully you’ll find a decent med for yourself soon 
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What do you mean broke free? Usually a psychotic episode means ya brain broke though lol
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Welcome to the forum!
I understand the feeling of not wanting to take meds, but as long as I experience symptoms I’ll be likely on them.
Maybe in time you can reduce your meds under a psychiatrists supervision.
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Stick around awhile, at least, and see if you can relate to anyone. I can relate to people here. For instance similarities in the things voices say and the same delusional thinking. I’m convinced I have schizo affective disorder bi polar type/ dissociative Identity Disorder/drug and alcohol addiction. I’ve really hated the medicine before. Now I’m on something that’s not that bad. I recently stopped my antidepressant and I’m noticing an effect. I thought it was doing nothing. I now on an antipsychotic and antianxiety medicine. I take small doses I think because I’ve been on it 35 years. That may not be why.
Welcome to the forum! Glad you found us
What are the reasons your psychiatrist says you have schizophrenia? Have they explained it to you? Maybe we can help you think through it.
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When I’m on meds I wish I was off them, and when I’m off them I wish I was on them.
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I’ve gotten a lot better partially due to this site and I agree that it can be very good even if you don’t have schizophrenia or something of the like. I had psychotic symptoms that came from trauma and ptsd. This community still welcomed me and helped me so much. They don’t always tell you what you want to hear but that’s part of why I like it. It’s honest. I hope you can find a spot you like here and if not then I hope you can find somewhere else that will help you and that you can fit in. The best of luck.
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Hello @Falseprophet, welcome to the forums. My impression of your post and your situation is that it depends on how you look at it. You look at it a certain way which is not totally in a wrong way. But another way of looking at it is that schizophrenia is a real thing and at this point in history, medication is the number one treatment for it. That may change in the future and medication could possibly go the way of lobotomies and chaining patients to walls like they did at the turn of the century. But for now, we have medication.
And you may really be schizophrenic. Doctors don’t give this diagnosis lightly and doctors obviously thing you have some kind of disturbance or condition that warrants taking medication. You look at it as if it’s some kind of punishment to control you and keep you in line and “silenced”. Why don’t you look at it as if they’re trying to help you? I’ve heard points of view similar to yours before about being controlled. If you are acting out of the ordinary or saying crazy things maybe medication that controls your behavior and makes you not have crazy thoughts is what you need.
When I first started taking medication 40 years ago I thought it changed my personality too. And I used to be heavily sedated. But forty years later, I see I couldn’t have worked for the last 38 years without medication or be one class away from graduating college.
I’m willing to sacrifice a few things in order to function properly. I’m willing to put up with a few side effects in order to live independently in society. I found that not fighting the people who are trying to help me is key to my recovery. I had doubts like yours long ago but 40 years of perspective helps me see that schizophrenia is a real thing, and I have it. I could’ve refused medication and fought with the doctors and argued that I wasn’t schizophrenic. But I co-operrated and things didn’t work out that bad. I just want to give you some things to think about. You can ignore me or think I’m wrong, it’s your choice. One last thing to think about: medication keeps lots of people out of the hospital.
Is it really pro-science to deny the mechanism and true purpose of antipsychotic drugs?