With the continuous delusions that happen, I have grown tired and used to it. Also, I have been suffering from depression for years now and have been lacking motivation from doing anything except my creative hobbies.
I am not interested anymore at all-at anything. I feel empty and tired from it all. For me, there is no point in moving forward anymore.
Have you every experienced anything like this? I would love to hear.
I’ve thought about pursuing creative and spiritual interests as well as substance use as my only pursuits in life, I’m very ambitious though and one day I was criticized for it by a peer. He was very hurtful so I blocked him but he motivated me. Now I’m going to school for sociology and don’t drink or drug. I feel much better now.
Just hope it keeps up
This kind of problem has always been a major issue for me. I do very little with my time. I’m hoping I can get started on constructive projects, but I always shirk that opportunity when I have the chance.
I also suffer from getting bogged down in life, and it seems to have no rhyme nor reason to when it hits, but it is the most debilitating feeling, everything just goes dark and room temp.
Then sometimes without warning it lifts, and the world becomes bright and shiny again.
Seems like the harder I try and fight it, the longer and stronger it clings to me. If I simply become aware of it, but just allow it to hang, it resolves itself pretty quickly.
That and a distraction that holds my attention away from myself works wonders, as does going outside my house, matters not where, just out.
A Fresh perspective changes all.