Last night had ongoing nightmare that this angry spirit wanted me out of my neighbor’s guest room. Bad enough that I felt like I sensed something there beforehand, this frightening heaviness in the hallway right outside the room. The spirit was glaring at me and demanding I leave basically. But I couldn’t wake up because of my sleep meds so the spirit kept getting angrier and angrier. When I finally managed to wake up, at 4 am after already having woken up earlier at 2 am starving and binge ate gross food, I was too freaked to stay in the guest room and went and slept on the couch downstairs.
I have no idea what is setting all of this off if it is symptoms. There are no outstanding stressors in my life right now. In fact things are going fairly well compared to how they were.
Dear Anna, I’ve read this message and another as well from you. You sound frightened and unwell, which is quite understandable if you are seeing evil spirits and demons. I personally don’t believe they are real, but that doesn’t matter - for you they are real and thus it is normal to be worried and exhausted.
Is there anyone who can help you there - a pdoc, a family member? What kind of meds are you on and is it an option to discuss a change/increase of meds with your pdoc? What happened to you that triggered this?
Also, you do not need to listen to the spirits you see.
No that’s ok it was still a very nice response. I do not feel comfortable sharing this with my family or friends just because of the nature of what’s happening. It’s really hard for me even to just say they’re hurting me and not go in detail to my loved ones for some reason. It’s hard to talk about any of it at all for me which is something I’m working through in therapy, despite how open I can be about it through writing and anonymously online.
It’s very hard for me not to listen to them because they are not just commanding me to do things, it’s like they are pushing their will on me too. Have you ever been lying in one position for a really long time and just feel the overwhelming urge to shift positions? And you can’t get comfortable or focus on anything else until you do? It’s like that.