Nightmares bro, nightmares

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It’s nothing but nightmares now.

I don’t know when my dreams are being screwed with now, they showed me they can but im not sure when it’s them or just me having bad dreams from pain and hopelessness and fear.

The other night it was hitler torturing people, he fed a dude to rats and then brought his partially eaten corpse out in front of everyone and threw it down like it was trash.

And this other guy had undergone experimentations in which he had his genitals removed and there was this big hole and ■■■■■■■ snakes were crawling up inside of him.

Every night im subjected to awful dreams, partially because of my painful life and partially because they are induced by he who must not be named.

Hey, if you had your life ruined entirely and were tormented for years you’d be having nightmares to.

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Neurological disorder bro, neurological disorder.

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Do you watch strange movies pan?

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I used to take the med Seroquel XR and it had some unusual side affects before it put me to sleep but it caused me to have pleasant dreams that where more vivid unless I had been drinking a lot in which case I would experience the being in hell kind of dream myself and was glad to be back here when I woke up. I don’t take it anymore because of the unusual side affect, and have given up drinking so to have better dreams and that works for me anyway. I just take some herbal pills I get at the dollar store that work just fine now that put me to sleep.

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Induced neurological problem bro, an unnessecary induced neurological disorder bro.

You should read about some of the things they can do to a person.

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No i don’t.

My life was destroyed and they have hurt me for a long time. So i have nightmares sometimes, some of which may be induced.

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If you were physiologically/neurologically the same as the others then why would they choose you and only you?

Obviously there is some difference in the beginning.

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I don’t know, why does an intelligent male child make the best sacrifice according to crowley.

Beats the ■■■■ out of me.

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You’re logic is askew. But I guess you’re in good company.

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Perhaps im their enemy and they are mine?

Maybe there is something in me that they like to hurt?

Maybe we have several things that we disagree on?

Or maybe they are just evil right? Can’t forget that one can you? Some just enjoy it.

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I have nightmares a fraction of the time. They suck.

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Ok that’s understandable

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What would you say? 1/8? 1/3? 1/27?

I don’t have what could be called dreams anymore.

Im drowned in it. I’ve got these assholes doing bad ■■■■ to my brain for years, poverty, cruel sociopathic family members, and now physical ailments from pills. Almost everything that could have gone wrong did, like all i can say now is i haven’t been raped, murdered, and im not african, thats it.

Now my family is going to abandon me it looks like.

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No strange or horrible films needed, my life is those films.

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I’m sorry that this illness has damaged you so severely. To answer your question, maybe one fourth to half of the time I have nightmares- half of the time when I am having a rough spell due to external stressors and a fourth of the time otherwise. I have been having a rough spell, putting up with ■■■■■■■■, having trouble sleeping, forgetting what I was doing and what I just said, going from sleepy to jittery, making life decisions…like grad school…the ■■■■■■■■ symptoms and some irritating things at school, family issues (I live with my parents and sister and my sister has bipolar and borderline) and did I mention psychotic symptoms?

I sometimes enjoy my nightmares, I get a thrill from waking up with my heart pounding, but I don’t enjoy not sleeping enough. I only enjoy nightmares when I wake up on schedule, then they’re just like a violent or horrific video game.

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I got horrific nightmares like that since I was very young as well…I wonder if that’s because of our disorders…or if our brains just hate us @.@

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Im looking at total and complete abandonement at this point, and not a dime to go on.

Im probably going to die shortly.

I couldnt’ imagine sitting in a classroom with them in my mind telling me to kill myself.

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I take pride in doing what is most ironic- being an honors psych student. You won’t die, you don’t do drugs or even smoke or drink from what I gather.

Dude you sound like you have a negative attributional style similar to depression.

I prescribe some good porn and a glass of wine and a good movie.

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I smoke like two packs a day but only drink occassionally, only when it boils over.

No drugs though. Except for the horribly poisonous psyche drugs that are destroying me in every way.

And it’s rather possible really. Can’t stay here, no help from the fam on both sides. Im going to end up attempting to get a place with almost nothing to go on. That means hit up the shelter as much as possible and try to save enough to pay deposits and get bills turned on and all of that stupid ■■■■, ill be starting with almost nothing when i get there.

I have the best of support systems, they are complete psychopaths.

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I sometimes get nightmares , being shot is a familure one , but thankfully I usually get routine dreams , like last week I dreamt about a dear friend , who I’ve become estranged from , through no ones fault. Haven’t met him in 8 years , when we went to school together , when we lived for 2 years in college together , thats quite along time to not having met since. Anyway in the dream we met up and were just chatting about minor things. Will always be buddies , can’t imagine him havn changed that much