i dont know why i am depressed. in my mind i have no reason to be depressed. im gonna try explain what happen when i got depressed. i remember laying in my bed at the hospital. i was thinking that i was gonna be a rap star. and then i thought that to be a rap start i have to do it and work. i remeber thinking this is reality. for me when i was psycotic i thought it was going to be easy to be a rap star and i was born one i was already one, but undiscovered. my psycosis arent crazy either i think i wasent so wery far from the truth both can be tru i think. but i remember when my psycosis where gone i was wery depressed. why? i should be happy after a psycosis not depresed. i dont know why i am depressed. right know i feel lost i am not the person i use to be, maybe i am more gone then i realise. the reason i know i am depressed is that my orgasms are wack! i gess if i want answers i have to find them out my self. thats for â– â– â– â– â– â– â– sure either you dont wanna teach me or dont â– â– â– â– â– â– â– know how. or dont care.
honestly? i think everybody gets a little depressed after a bout of psychosis. it’s the extremes of emotion, thoughts and wishes or fears during psychosis that keep us on edge or manically happy. once that has worn off you’re left with the mundane routine of life which isn’t what you thought it was. it’s boring, it’s repetative and not many people make it to the top and those that do work damn hard to get there. and even then there are millions that work just as hard to get there and never do. you find them at recording studios all over the world making demos that never sell or if they’re lucky they write for other people because their chance has come and gone. you find them in pubs and clubs and bars singing other people’s music, not because they’re not talented enough but simply because they never made it to the big time. don’t think any less of yourself because you haven’t “made it big” you may well be talented enough but not have the motivation to persue your dreams. another reason that depression follows psychosis is because you realise that you were extremely ill and how the hell did you ever believe in that ■■■■in the first place. that’s how i felt. it still flummoxes the ■■■■out of me now to be honest. don’t be so hard on yourself. you have a psychotic illness i’m guessing or you wouldn’t be posting here. take your medication religiously and take it easy. hope this helps.
I think that we all miss our delusions of grandeur, I know I did for a while. I make up for their absence by being really good at managing schizophrenia, which is actually what I do, but I get narcissistic about it instead of delusionally grandiose.
Hi my dear friend; I thought the same “…I have no reason to be depressed…I should be happy after a psycosis…” because I could study, I could work, I could have a girlfriend, but I have no motivation. In my case, I have learnt that I have apathy and avolition; these are negative symptoms from schizophrenia; in my case, I take a antidepressant which is very useful to apathy and less avolition.
Maybe you should check out next link, which has useful information about this topic: http://schizophrenia.com/diag.php
Tolteca.
my psycologist says that it is normal to be depressed after a psycosis. i felt good before i was psycotic. i was horny, happy but a lot of problems at times, and different times in my life. i never worked properly i avoided the real life or something for a wery long time. i dont know what the ■■■■i did. sometimes i think that and i think that… if a was better before i can go there again, but if i lie was making me happy , maybe it aint gonna happen again. because, i doesent work lying to myself anymore. apathy avoliation. i know that i have felt something more then this, i think i can lead a happy life when i am ready. if life gonna be like this. i have sayd im gonna kill myself… why do you think i have apathy and that. i think i am just depressed.
i dont take any medication. People say you get stupid on them. i dont know what to belive.
i have posted something for you
i take meds and i have not gotten stupid. different meds work differently on different people. some can have disastrous side effects, some make you agitated, some make you zombiefied, but sometimes they actually improve your life and sense of well being. what have you got to lose by trying them all? if you don’t have a job and don’t have kids you could try every single one until you find one that fits and does it’s job. good luck.
yes you are right. do you think we People know the truth? im looking for answers, but dont you think i already know them?
yes you are right. do you think we People know the truth? im looking for answers, but dont you think i already know them?
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I think that this depression will pass and you’ll be back to normal again… well you know what I mean as normal as you can be without the depression.
But you won’t start making progress until you fully appreciate that the chances are good you will go through this again whether your medicated or not.
So you have to prepare yourself for it emotionaly because the next time if you are prepared you it won’t be so bad.
And you know not taking mess is the right decision for some people not for others.
If you start feeling like you are not in full control of yourself then you should prolly talk to a doc.
Try to get a psychiatrist that has extensive experience with mental disorders because not all docs are equal.
Yes, my dear friend, I read your post so I feel the same; before I was psycotic I had enormous motivation, I enter at University, I wanted to be engineer but I had many mental problems: I could not concetrate in my class, I had no friends because I felt that they could read my mind even my teachers, etc. But I had motivation; I don´t know exactly the reason, the medicine or some psychological aspect; in my case it has been useful Pristiq (Desvenlafaxine), I stared to take in last November so I can tell you that I feel a enormous difference.
Perhaps it has been useful that you check out next link, which was shared for @firemonkey.
If I can help you in something, You let me know. 
Tolteca.
My friend, perhaps it can be useful you check out the next definiton from Wikipedia about “Aboulia”. I don´t know exactly the difference between Aboulia, Apathy or Avoliton but I have some of them.
Tolteca.
thank you for Your help. sorry. i had to much to think about. iv’e read about apathy, and i think i was like that when you sugested that. avolition to… now i think im just depressed. hehe. i had to much on my mind to understand what you was really saying. i wasent thinking clearly. i was to focused on my problems. and to think i have apathy and avolition scared me. it was just to much for me to cope With.hehe. but no harm done. i was just ■■■■■■upp 
thanks. i should have read it then not now hehe. you said you had it for years. and i havent had it for years just months. i just missed something you said. i thought you was wrong. hehe mixing between what i said and what i thought and what you said. thanks again. NeXT time il read what you send to me 
i hope you can understand what i say, i have a feeling that you want understand what the hell i am talking about maybe you are maybe you arent. i dont know. im not saying that you are stupid. i just dont feel that i am a wery god explainer. cya mate. my thought are here and there you know. you are not stupid. its just me who are â– â– â– â– â– â– upp thinking. god night i need rest