Negative Symptoms of Schizophrenia makes me feel like my personality has disappeared. I don’t experience any emotion (neither positive nor negative) I’ve no energy to do any activity, and if I do it causes a kind of suffering and emptiness, I don’t enjoy anything (Anhedonia), I am not talking to much and if I do it’s just about my medical condition, social disconnects, no sexual desire, I barely sleep, and I am feeling passive and this brings me to a prolonged stay at home without activity. I don’t have meaning in my life and definitely don’t feel alive.
I am feeling deep despair and frustration in the most extreme way, there’s a lot of suicidal thoughts about euthanasia in Switzerland (if there is no solution somewhere in the world + I suffer 24\7) I can’t feel love, joy, and experience life as it was before, in healthy brain, my alternative is to rot at home many years or rot in a hostel- and both of them is something that I can’t imagine myself living.
It’s important for me to say that in first time in my life I think that I can’t help myself.
There is nofthing I can do about it. I have tried any treatment & methods out there.
If you were me, what would you do? What else can I do?
I used to feel really bad negative symptoms then my pdoc put me on a low dose of olanzapine alongside my main med amisulpride. He explained although olanzapine is an AP it also works as an antidepressant. Since going on it my negative symptoms have improved greatly.
There must be a med out there that can help! Speak with your pdoc about that.
Hang in there buddy. There are medicines coming (ITI 007 and MIN 101) shortly in year or two which will help with positive + negative and cognitive symptoms. So situation would be better. Have you tried CBT and support groups that might help. Also talk to your pdoc about your options (talk with them about these coming medications as well).
Remember we are here to support you. Always remember that.
Keep working with the med’s. Maybe you can find one that helps. In the meantime, try to be patient. Life can get better. I was very similar to you, and I still am, to some extent, but as I have gotten older I have gotten more philosophical, and that makes life better. I do enjoy some things now.