the voices in my head are mean and ugly and they make me feel badly.
to boot the thought broadcasting makes me feel like others can hear them as well. and then trouble for me…
and then paranoia…
ignore ignore ignore, that’s all they tell me. I wish they could come up with better solutions like something positive I could do.
judy
I’m so sorry you have bad voices Judy. I haven’t had to deal with voices since I stablized. I hear seroquil is good for voices. Are you on that medication?
Seroquel was an awful drug for me so they switched me to abilify which I am comfortable with – the first drug that wasn’t painful for me. judy
It’s really hard to just ignore voices especially when they are beating on you. Sometimes you start to agree with the mean, ugly things they say. Maybe you can talk back to them and tell them they aren’t real. It’s good that you can differentiate voices and delusions from reality. Or wear headphones and listen to music to drown out the voices?
skims, it is usual that the voices seem real to me and I really cannot differentiate except that the therapist tells me it isn’t real and I am trying to agree with her.
I hate my voices. they are the voices of hatred and prejudice especially on me, for being someone with sz etc. they are despicable. i’ll have to tell myself these despicable people in my head are my imagination at its worst – not real at all.
judy
I’m sorry, I still see and hear things. The voices are cruel and evil, but I have to pretend I’m not bothered by them or my mother in law threatened to kick me out.
everyone but everyone was telling me they weren’t real and I had the hardest time believing them all until about today. so congratulate me folks – today is the day I realize I am plum c___y.
lol!!! hope I didn’t offend anyone here.
judy
I think crazy sometimes is an appropriate term. In a joking way for laughing at ourselves. But I don’t like when people call me crazy.
I feel the exact same way. When I have told some about the voices and the negativity people try to tell me everyone has that negative voice in their head…really? I doubt it’s as bad as the multiple voices in my head telling me nothing but negative things, and it’s hard not to agree with them after a while. I do try to ignore them, but when they’re constant 24/7 it’s hard to do that.
What’s worse is they get to be extremely distracting, and I can’t focus on normal things like my writing, and some may look at it as procrastination, but it’s really not, it’s my voices telling me my writing sucks, and I should give it up and go get a real job…but then that’s a double edge sword on it’s own because I can’t handle the stress of a real job, that is what triggers my relapses, stress…and how can I focus on a real job if I can’t even focus on a job I really want to do, like write?
It gets so F*****'ng (pardon the french, I try to avoid it…) hopeless at times not only am I giving myself panic attacks because I can’t do something simple as get and hold a job, and can’t do what I really want to do because the voices have me doubting my actual skills and abilities. And my abilities diminish greatly because my relapses…and then I sink further and further into depression. I wish I knew how to break the cycle, because I know it’s not healthy.