Hello everyone
For 12 years now they have not been able to find the pills in my country that I need to function with schizophrenia. I have tried everything. From so many changes in pills I have gained over 40 kilos. I am now on 15 mg of Haldol. After all, I just sleep for days. At night I have terrible nightmares. I can’t concentrate to post anything. I don’t even talk to anyone because a long conversation tires me out. I feel very bad. This dose of 15 mg of Haldol has been given to me because I have completely disconnected from reality. I thought that people were deliberately following me to ruin my life. I thought that people were talking against me on television. I did not believe that my parents were my biological parents. I doubted everything. As if by accident, I also caught skin diseases. I have many new moles on my neck and under my breasts and I am 36 years old. I went to the doctor where they told me they were papillomas. i’m not sure that’s what they are. i think it’s all from the medication. my whole body is broken. i have no desire for anything.
any opinion from your side is welcome.
Hey there I’m glad the delusions are reducing and you’re getting your life back again. It must have been very difficult 
It’s far away from good.
I don’t have delusions but with this pills I said I barley am alive. Don’t do anything. Only sitting in mine bed. Don’t talk. Don’t listen music. Everything makes me nervous.
Today it’s the 40 years of marriage of mine parents. I ruined every single celebrations in this house. I hope for better life.
I had the same problem with the heavier meds. What I have done – once I was stable for some time – is switch to newer meds that don’t regulate my positive symptoms as well, but also use therapies and other techniques to help handle my positive symptoms. I use CBT, DBT, diet, exercise, supplments, and maintaining a positive attitude to help. I still have voices and delusions but can mostly ignore them while maintaining insight and having a career.
Something to talk to your doctor about. This is difficult because they are more focused on eliminating symptoms as much as possible rather than allowing you to have some symptoms but cope with them on lower levels of meds.
Hope this is helpful.
@ananan,I live in Eastern Europe,the list of meds is very short.
If you haven’t tried Clozapine/Leponex or quit bc of weight gain,it’s golden standard for meds for sz.
Maybe ask dr a smaller dose to sleep …
Tnx for advice. I will try because it’s very very hard to deal alone with this illness. My parents are old and they don’t understand what I’m going through. I have no friends, except one with who chat only by messages because she lives in other city.
Yes the list for this condition in mine country is very reduce. I’ve tried with azolar, it’s second generation and I only get fat and fat and they don’t work. I’m on doctor this Thursday so I will find out what to do. I feel hopeless.