i feel different from People without schizophrenia i feel like i am missing something, i also feel different from other schiz, i’ve never mett another schiz, that i can se or feel, that this person is walking in my shoes. and wiews the world the same as me. my wiev on the world isent to bragg about. i come many times to this forum to try to find other People writting about how much day struggle and to see that i am not alone. but i am still alone today. sometimes i think that People come to this forum to have fun not to get better. i see you People Wright stuff but you dont complain alot. seems like you have a pretty fun life. lol. i actually feel like a retard. because i cant work my brain doesent work. cant think logicall. easy Things that should come naturally dont come. i cant work. i will get disabilty. i can never be like other People and i will never be. i will always have that thing missing. and i cant find out what it is im missing. i see People talk and have fun. i dont have that ■■■■. sometimes i think that i dont have schizophrenia, because other People who have schizophrenia talk With other People and have that thing i am missing. i have schizophrenia. but sometimes it seems like it is something else. because i cant find what i am looking for in other schizo.just saying i just stopped smoking weed for god i hope. maybe this have something to do With how i have been… the feeling of wanting or wanting to do somthing but you cant is not a god feeling. so my life is going to be a life on disability and wanting something i never gonna get. happy life. wery fun. if there is a god what was the purpose of creating me. sometimes i think god doesent exist becuase why would he create me? hes wery selfish if so. i am wery angry at him. the pain im going tru sometimes make me question he’s existence. im looking for help.
Hey man my brain don’t work either I’ve literally been chased out of town on 2 occasions ,but hey if you keep coming here you’ll meet some really nice people that can help you.
All I know is that weed can contribute a lot to the people already prone to depression/negative symptoms.
There is NO WAY things gonna be like that forever.
Because, when you look around, everything changes. It’s just a nature of life.
Stick around here. I know you gonna be better. 
thought i would say hi…
this is a safe place… 
people come on to this forum to try and…lighten the load of their mental illness.
we may joke…around… but it is to hide the pain. 
it is a coping mechanism.
sorry you are hurting 
sz is not the end of the world…it is a disease of the mind…and with the right medication or not !?!
you can have a good life.
i know a girl she is 23…she has been ill from the day she was born…with a chronic physical illness
yet she strives for a better life
she bravely keeps going no matter the odds
she keeps walking towards a better future…
i admire her alot…
you can’t let this illness define you…nor any moment in time.
we have to learn ’ yes '…
but not be defeated…
take care 
When I started coming on here… I was having a very hard time…
I had lost my ability for conversation… I had lost my ability for light hearted small talk…
I had lost the ability to stay on topic and think in a straight line…
Talking with others here… retrained my brain about conversation… I re-learned how to stay on topic…not jump topic… even if my replies were only a sentence long… I re-learned how to beat my word salad when joining in.
I also got a lot of my confidence back when joining in.
Please stay… join in… and I hope this forum helps you as much as it helped me.
I’m on SSI right now, even though I’m going to school. Even though I’m in school, I don’t know if I’m ever going to get a job. I might seriously be over 40 years old before I actually get a job. I feel so much pain just rotting away in my parents’ basement and never having a job. Suffering can have a refining effect on people. Suffering is a part of life, especially for some people more than others. There are very few people that don’t have some kind of problems.
Zechariah 13:8-9
8In the whole land, declares the Lord,
two thirds shall be cut off and perish,
and one third shall be left alive.
9And I will put this third into the fire,
and refine them as one refines silver,
and test them as gold is tested.
Malachi 3:2
2But who can endure the day of his coming, and who can stand when he
appears? For he is like a refiner’s fire and like fullers’ soap.
3He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver, and he will purify the
sons of Levi and refine them like gold and silver, and they will bring
offerings in righteousness to the Lord.
1 Peter 1:6-7
6In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials,
7so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that
perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise
and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.
There’s nothing wrong with having fun on this site. Having fun can be therapeutic. I’ve felt some of the isolation you talk about. A lot of us have. I too feel different, even from other sz’s. We’re not as different as we think. The thing to do is to make the best of it.
thanks for the help. it helped alot. im doing better today. actrually im doing much better. today ha’s been the best day in 1 Whole year, cant wait to get back out there tommorow. i actually have hope now that i can beat this. there are little doubt still left in me. but With time i think i can be what i want to be! thanks guys
I’m glad you are doing better 
I’m sorry for your experience. We are all here to get better. Yes, many of us have fun here because we don’t go out or interact with other people. That’s my case, anyway. I feel the same; that I don’t fit in anywhere and that I’m different from “normal” people. I’m very anti-social and communicating with people feels awkward and unnatural to me. I just don’t get what everyone else gets. I am strange, I have magical thinking, hallucinations and paranoid delusions, but in this community I’ve found people I can relate to and joke around with. That feels good to me and is helping me to get better by relating.
Maybe you’re experiencing depression and some depersonalization? Weed can definitely cause both, especially depersonalization and I speak from experience. I don’t smoke, but I did years ago and it made me paranoid and feel such depersonalization that I was sure I was going to lose my mind and never come back.
I’m happy you’re here and I hope you continue to follow the forum. Let us know how the weed detox goes. You may feel a lot better without it