how are you guys? ive upped my Depakote. otherwise, i see myself now suffering a loot from irritability. its to a point that i cant listen to others, it since years like this :/. i am not proud of it at all but besides that i am afraid. i still hope that there is an issue but now with the meds i am just depressed to be the cold monster which i was. my mother asked me today - ‘but from where the hell you got this nastiness?’’… yeah… for her, the family of my father were all bad people 
it makes me feel sad, i have this side as well yes…
maybe i feel a slight improvement on my upper dose of Depakote since 2 days… maybe its kind of manic thing, i am not sure…
keep going 
i used to be very irritable and still a little bit that way, but risperidone really helped with it. maybe your meds will help more after the higher dose gets in your system
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i cant really up my dose of Zyprexa cause i cant handle the energy plus it doesn’t really calm me on higher dose. i upped my Depakote for my irritability, maybe it can help me more than the antipsychotic. one pdoc told me that the irritability sometimes is a sign of ‘‘bad’’ mania…