And were you also in a very tough mental and emotional pain at your worst? Tbh, I’ve decided to endure it, my docs say, that they can’t help me more and that the zyprexa can work in years for me…
Tbh, I progress every day now, I change, but sometimes it’s still the mazes of the Hades here for me… I just don’t know what to do with the pain sometimes… but before, I was given up even so I guess I should accept it now? It will ease too eventually, right? 
I have physical symptoms too because of my sz now, they can be painful too…
But my curse probably is that I am way too aware, that I am ill and also, maybe I still want too much from my life lol… or am just lost right now, not been able to think reasonably yet yeah…
My doc allows me klonopin too.
I’m on klonopin for sleep. 1.5mg every night before bed.
If something is causing you emotional pain I found that finding closure alleviates that, but it took me like 10 years to find closure on the things that bothered me. But once I did my depression disappeared on its own and I quit my antidepressant.
OK, I’ll continue looking for the closures OK 
I am probably traumatized by this sz experience… I was very unhappy kid too, unhappy till madness. And then, around my 20s, the real madness came to me… the treatments came at my 25s , but they didn’t work for ten years. Now, I try everything what I can lol…
I hope, there’ll be less pain though… I was hating my days for decades, because of it sheesh…
But zeprexa and lurazidone is the same thing.for the same disese.i don’t know im guessing.
No, Zyprexa(olanzapine) and Latuda(lurasidone) are different medications, but they can both be used for schizophrenia.
did you live alone those 10 years,or were you isolated.i talk to my brother sometimes and my mother.but I’m not relaxed with them anymore.something is on going inside of me,it’s bothering me.cause iv been living with like this for 10years.im losing my memory my attention my heart is inpain always.
I’m getting obsessed over everything.cigarettes,eating,youtube.and I’m getting more isolated.
I live with my mom, dad and brother but that is the extent of my social life.
i don’t have any friends in real life. I talk to people at work occasionally, but that is just about work stuff.
I socialize with a lot of people on this forum but no one here is technically “my friend”.
I’ve isolated for 20 years, dear @Headspark lol… my past years were basically nothing… I saw one quote, saying that “the hell is empty and all the devils are in there” 
sheesh…
I knew lots of suffering tbh, way too much… And my parents were seeing nothing, while I was completely crazy… a beating father, a total terror at home, while my mom says it’s genetic what I have lol…
I’ll see how my tomorrow will be… I start hating my pointless struggle to be better…
Yeah, latuda and zyprexa are different…
For the klonopin… years ago it was helping me, but lately, it makes me mostly sleepy as it is for you yeap… maybe, I am turning human again lol 
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Zyprexa helps me a lot. I take 20mg at night but sometimes during the day if I’m really anxious I take another 10mg. I’ve heard of other people taking up to 40mg a day.
Pals, do you think, that I can recover on my thinking with the zyprexa? It was always bad and I suspect more the illness, than the dulling meds 
maybe it’s up first to make me less worried and paranoid and maybe later the thinking? Or this won’t work? Sheesh…
Should I accept a bit of numbness from the illness now? I find the paranoia harder tbh. But I still am paranoid and worried, that everyone will shout at me…
I was on 40mg/day for 15 years but the side effects were bad.
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