It’s driving me insane. He’s begging me over and over for one more chance and I keep on telling him I can’t anymore I’m sorry.
He said he learned a lot in this past month and wants me to give him “one more chance, I’m begging you”
I feel like I just want to end my life so that it will force him to let me go. Because if I go then he will have to let me go.
Other problem is if I don’t kill myself and i force him to let me go, I will get paranoid he’ll come after me.
This world is too painful to live in. How will I ever cope? Crime. Sickness. Covid. Divorce. Constant paranoia. Alien. Bad teeth. No license. No job. No money.
If you are feeling suicidal or having a mental health crisis, please tell someone — a friend or family member, a teacher, a doctor or therapist or call 911 (if you’re in the U.S.) or the Emergency Medical Services phone number in your country.
You can also call a crisis intervention hotline—these are available in the U.S. and in many other countries. You do not need to be actively suicidal to benefit from a crisis hotline.
You should call a mental health crisis line and talk this through with them. Killing yourself or hurting yourself won’t help anything. You’re valuable to people like us who care about you. You’re a good person and the world needs people like you in it.
I asked my sister if she ever was paranoid - even when she divorced her abusive husband and she said no - she never believed her ex would come after her. She said she doesn’t understand my paranoia. Said she never heard voices or was paranoid.
Am I being paranoid believing my husband would come after me or his family kidnap me? Is this part of psychosis?
Don’t let things get to you. Anything that is depressing or anxiety producing, just avoid it. If it’s causing that much distress, don’t talk to your husband and just continue with your plans. Things may look scary now, but you probably just need basic information to help you, that you’re not aware of.
I think that the stress of leaving your husband and living on your own is making you more paranoid.
Try to make contact with someone you can really talk to.
Divorcing my ex wife made me go nuts.
I became symptomatic with mania and depression.
Call up a crisis line if you have to and make sure you remain in close contact with your doctor during this stressful period.
I’m not going to lie to you, it’s going to get rocky.
Divorce is a big stressor, and you have to make sure that you take extra measures to take care of yourself during this time.
Just take one thing at a time. The holidays can be a tough time, so just focus on getting through that first. Don’t take on the whole future right now in this moment.
What you picture can happen with your husband is the worst case scenario. There is very little chance something like that will happen so you should just dismiss that thought although it can be difficult. Sometimes when I think about stuff the worst case scenario pops up. I think it is quite common for people to have thoughts about that, but the healthy thing is to dismiss it. It’s like picturing you will win the first price in the lottery to compare it to a best case scenario.
And yes, do get in touch with someone on a crisis line if things are too much to bear for you. I hope you will be able to calm down for the hollidays.
