Husband is going out tonight. The last time he did, I attempted suicide. I was feeling good. Now I am having second thoughts.
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I’m sorry, I won’t bother anyone anymore.
Do you have anyone you could invite over? Maybe you should cultivate some friends to socialize with. You can’t build a support network on just one person.
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don’t do anything stupid.
you have two beautiful kids a great husband…look at this as an opportunity for you do something for yourself like watching a fun movie…etc.
you can do this.
i just made some 
, this bit is for you.
take care 
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@samples32 try talking on the phone to a friend or family member if no one can come over and spend time with you. I hope you do o k. it should be alright if you remain calm.
With tonight being extremely challenging, getting through will be a positive catalyst for the future.
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I’m sorry I didn’t see this one earlier…
How are you feeling today?
Try to switch your thoughts to positive thoughts and have a freind over if it helps occupy you.
In times like this you have to think of more than yourself, since suicidal thoughts are usually due to personal pains and depression, hopelessness, etc.
have to think of others…like what if husband comes home and finds you attempted or completed it? That shock for life.
What if your kids see you? Another shock. Plus possibility kids get taken if you did something like that at home with them…
Plus, kids & husband love you and think of how they will feel, the loss, and how…etc…
I must apologize for you to feel such a way when your husband leaves.
I become crazed when my husband does. We’ve had to write out multiple lists for various reasons when he leaves. Lists such as things I can do to occupy myself while he’s gone. We also have a list where he will write down what time he will be leaving to the time he will return and in this same list, he writes down a time where he will call me (only once) so I can talk to him, hear his voice, and if anything is wrong, let him know so he can return home sooner. Hopefully it won’t take that much effort to put your kind mind at ease (it is a little excessive on my part for him to go to such great lengths). Any time he is out later than expected, he calls to ensure I need not to worry and that I am doing alright.
What I think of most when I’ve wanted to result in self mutilation isn’t on how better I may view their lives if I am gone, but rather - if it were my husband instead that were to try to kill himself while I was away. It causes such a devastation, I can feel the sadness in my chest. This, I am sure, is how your husband would feel.
You have support here.