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My future update

I’m moving from a residential treatment home into a group home sometime next week. Right now I live in a big old two story house near downtown. I live with four women and 6 men. We have regular groups but we have lots of free time. I take walks to 7-11 and KFC for cokes and take care of business. I’m having my ups and downs and my memory has taken a hit. Lots of changes. Feelings of pain from my moms death.

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aw @77nick77 I feel so bad for you. You seemed on top of the world just months ago. I don’t know how to console you about losing your mother. I don’t know what I’ll do when my mom passes away, we are very close as I’m sure you were too with your mom. I could just cry I am so sad for you.

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What happened Nick? You also said you just got out of the hospital? Is a group home better or worse than a residential treatment home. Please forgive my ignorance.

@77nick77

OMG I hope you haven’t been reading my nonsense and taking it to heart- You were just about to graduate college man! Don’t give up now!

I’m not sure of the difference. I call any house that houses a group of people with mental illness problems a group home.It seems like a residential treatment home is more structured and they try to help you. A group home is not as nice as a residential treatment home and they just house you and don’t give you any formal therapy.

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I haven’t given up on myself and people are trying to help me.

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How the heck did you get hospitalized again! Havn’t you been out of those places for over 10 years?

This grieves me deep in spirit- Especially since I loved all of your stories so much.

God I know the feeling man… Don’t let it get to you, maybe just pray for you mom’s soul?

If it’s any consolation:

(In heaven)

15 cahracters.

@mistercollie

Look what you did you ■■■■■■■. You just got your head so far up your own *** you don’t think a damn about anyone else or the community that you’re upsetting in your own personal “vendetta” that doesn’t even make sense in the first place. Like I said before, No, nay, never.

I had a lot of major life changes in a short period of time and I got suicidal. Yes, my last hospitalization was in 1990.

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It’ll get better.

Hang in the there, 77nick77. Thing will get better soon. You will find a new place and move into it. Have you done something unreasonable so that you lost your accommodation ? You might had experienced some delusion which would affect your attitude towards your neighbors. I have some worry for you.

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I’m so sorry. When I lost my father, I had a psychotic break, and I kept leaving in the middle of the night trying to find him. It was the most pain I’ve ever felt in my entire life. People say it gets easier with time, and I guess that’s true in a way. I think a more accurate way to say it is that you eventually get used to carrying around the pain, and slowly learn to work your life around it, so it doesn’t seem as heavy.

Take all the time you need to properly grieve. I firmly believe the only reason my mom is doing well now is because she gave herself two years to just absolutely fall apart. Grief has no set time limit, and if you try to ignore it it will just get bigger and bigger until it devours you. That’s what happened to me, I think.

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I’m so sorry this happened to you. Your an inspiration… I admire your ability to hang in there.

Are you still going to school? Are you still working?

I really hope things get on even keel for you soon. I’m truly rooting for you.

The residential home sounds nice.

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It won’t take long for you to get back on your feet again.

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I don’t know what i can do if i lost my mother. It must be really hard for you. I’m sending you a lot of hugs.

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My Mom is getting up there in years, it must be difficult to lose your Mom.

Hang in there Nick, you will be fine soon.

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Dude, quit tagging me in posts. Your incoherent rambling never makes sense to me. How am I responsible for someone else’s episode(s)? Get off your high horse, you’re sparking into internet delusion-mode again.

You said this is your first forum experience? Well kiddo, I’ve been on at least 10 different forums in my lifetime with 10’s of 1,000’s of posts, and I’ve never been called out like this before and accused of random ■■■■.

I’m contemplating leaving this forum for good because your internet harassing of me is terrible - from the random tags & accusations to the private messaging. Calm the ■■■■ down, lest you want me to really ■■■■ up your day.

**All of us fall apart when there are too many changes happening at once.
Its fine @77nick77...take all the time you need. Youll come out ok.
Really glad you have people to help you
Much love OOOOO **

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hugs nick…i hope you recover your equilibrium soon … xxx

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I’m sorry mistercollie. I’m going through hell too. Just ignore all of my posts. It’s no big deal right? Things can sometimes get this way in self help groups- I’m sure we all know that. God knows it isn’t easy for anybody- sorry for giving you a hard time.

Lets all just forget about it and try to salvage what’s left of our lives.