A bit fed up with all this uncertainty, they don’t even think my solipsism or devil beliefs are delusional. What’s going on?
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I don’t think your friends are psychiatrists.
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I guess they are more the anti-ppsychiatric types, bless them.
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I guess I’m back to square one, only psychiatrists and mentally ill folks believe that I’m crazy which, not unreasonably, makes me doubt my own insanity.
What is your official Dx?
Undifferentiated schizophrenia and ocd.
Does the undifferentiated mean you don’t sit inside the now defunct system of paranoid, catatonic and I forget the other one?
That’s right. My psychiatrist mentioned at our last meeting that my sz was largely centred around self-disturbance issues, plus some metaphysical /religious delusions. But I don’t hear voices or experience paranoia or disorganised symptoms.
Be advised from my anecdotal experience that hearing voices for me, and disorganised symptoms are really bad when I get so sick I completely lose it.
When I am stabilised, or not doing too bad, these things are far less of a problem.
Just wanted to make you aware, as if you were to get more sick, these things are a real possibility.
That said, reversible with some meds in some people, which I find surprising.
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I’ve never completely lost it, which is partly why I still struggle with accepting my diagnosis.
Well it’s better this way.
I was a danger to myself and others for a long time, and I internalised everything until just a few years ago, as I hid my illness for a long time, as I didn’t want to get locked up.
You sound like you have caught it at a good time before it gets too out of hand.
Wish they did that here, but mental health services in my area are only reactive with acute cases, so you have to get really bad before anyone seems to do anything about it unfortunately
I’m already a middle-aged git so I guess it won’t get much worse.
in my 20’s my friend rejected the idea that I had it. then she started going behind my back and telling people I lived on social security. she eventually ditched me. we lived together 7 months and were good friends for years. I haven’t seen her since.
the way they diagnose is very different to here in the uk. the reason im not diagnosed sz eventhough i heard voices for over 7 months is due to the fact im currently on a low dose of ap. you are not even on an ap. i dont undestand why a serious condition like sz does not have a universal diagnosis criteriaa.
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Sounds like a right she-devil.
Just wait. Take the meds or you’ll regret it
I’m supposed to have delusions, most of which I’ve shared on the forum. But even after reading about my unusual beliefs - that I co-created the universe alongside the devil and that other people aren’t real - you remain sceptical about my diagnosis. Now I feel really confused.
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I believe at times that I really don’t have SzA, and am afraid others will accuse me of faking it. But when my pdoc switched me to Abilify last May, he put me on only 5mg of it. I started hallucinating and got paranoid. My therapist had a hell of a time trying to convince me to go back and see my pdoc again.
He upped the dose to 10mg, and I mostly stopped hallucinating, but still get paranoid occasionally. But my point is that every time I go off meds, I get sick. That should be enough to convince me that I really do have SzA.
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Schizophrenia is weird. My parents can’t really tell anything is wrong with me. I only get slight paranoia. I’m not breaking holes in my walls (anymore). I feel like if you catch it early you feel much better. And can be more normal. This was only my 2nd time with major psychosis but boy was it a ride.
Isn’t it a bummer to get paranoia while on meds. I get so frustrated with it. It only happens every so often but when it does I’m just reminded of how fragile I am
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