My symptoms are mild, probably non existent. As for my unusual beliefs they are just exaggerated versions of what many normies think. Any of you finds him/herself in a similar position?
No, you havenāt.
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Youāre in denial. Every post you make is saying how you donāt have psychosis and the doctors are wrong. I know its hard to process but doctors donāt lie to patients. Its just not how medicine is.
Try not to blame yourself for it.
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Yes, first time i was diagnosed SZA by a psychiatrist it was only due to a kind of OCD thought disorder. But - i had all the negative symptoms of schizophrenia and severe mood swings. The diagnosis was not far fetched.
I think you have an meta obsession of ābeing in the worldā - and not a typical psychosis. But does it matter that much? I guess it all ends up in whether you benefit or not from medication and only you and the people who follow you daily can tell that.
Hope you are allright?
personally i think sz starts with a full blown psychotic episode, you would nt but know you were wired to some other realm
Never met a normie who thinks what you think outside a very small selection of my geek friends who live for SF. Youāre out there, man.
I agree. I donāt have bizarre delusions and my more extravagant pronouncements are rooted in life-long existential obsessions, perhaps unhealthy but certainly not psychotic. As a 12 year old I spent an entire year obsessiing over the problem of godās existence, I couldnāt think about anything else, weighing the pros and cons of both sides of the debate. I see this as more of a case OCD (which Iāve had since childhood) and perhaps overvalued ideas than sz.
Iām not sure I agree with this. The effects of the branding that comes with the diagnosis are life-changing.
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So you do know people with comparable preoccupations and obsessions to mine that have not been diagnosed with a psychotic disorder.
How do you mean?
The worse I;ve been is reflected in my posts on here. I never did anything ācrazyā, heard voices or experienced paranoia. Maybe some of my ideas make me something of an obsessive weirdo but Iām not schizophrenic.
I have no idea what your career is, but I suspect you hang out with people who share your interests and/or values.
Iām a bit of an outlier as Iāve been an active member of AA for close to three decades. This gets me circulating with people of all ages from all walks of life, so Iām exposed to many more people than most in this community would be. I can tell you that your beliefs are incredibly rare.
I was naive, of course diagnosis matters, especially if you were diagnosed as a child.
Guilty as charged. One of my best mates was rejoiced when he heard of my diagnosis because heās was at the time researching sz for his next novel. Heās using my unusual beliefs to bring one of his characters to life.
Sorry, I wasnāt clear. My sz diagnosis came only 2 years ago. My OCD was diagnosed when I was in my teens.
My entire life i have been running away or disregarding my diagnosis, itās just recently i have been facing it and i donāt know if itās a good idea or if i should try to run away once again.
One way or another it shows the strength of a diagnosis.
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Well some would argue these existentially themed ideas are the schizophrenic delusion par excellence
Yes, which of course bothers me. I guess Iāve lost confidence in how sz is being currently conceptualised and diagnosed.
I doubt they would diagnose someone with zero symptoms with schizophrenia, anyways you can get second opinions.
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I had delusions and voices and mood swings before I was diagnosed with sz/sza
Thatās what I mean, I didnāt really have those things, just slightly weird thinking.