hi people 
I still ask myself on this aspect of my life. I was to a point to not understand even a simple movie. it was strange cause it was selective kind of thing. I was getting some movies but some others-not… I still have a lot of problems in the reality to understand a lot of things. I have blanks I guess, some blockages also on the reality… this can get better with meds if I am less depressed maybe or its more serious than that? one pdoc told me once angry to me cause I was a bad patient that I should have some ‘’‘died brain cells’’… yes, ive heard even this. ive believed for a longtime that ill never recover and ill stay mentally retarded. is it true, how was it for you? does my dumbness is an illusion or its a thing in schizophrenia not to get some things and maybe ill never recover from that? wow…
Lots of negativity there. Stop being so hard on yourself.
Feel most of my blonde moments (if you like) are caused by being tired.
yes but even this negativity is dumb isn’t it? I saw it in ‘‘shutter island’’, they told to the guy that he was always repeating the same thing… if this wont disappear?
Soul searching is one thing. Being overly critical of yourself is anther.
soul searching @Dreamscape2, I dont understand this now…
Soul searching having a good look at yourself.
soul-searching
noun
noun: soul-searching; plural noun: soul-searchings
1.
deep and anxious consideration of one’s emotions and motives or of the correctness of a course of action.
“my conclusions required a great deal of soul-searching”
adjective
adjective: soul-searching
involving or expressing deep and anxious consideration of one’s emotions or motives.
“after a long, soul-searching conversation, they were finally reconciled”