My day turned into hell :-(

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I guess I realize I need a higher dose of medication. 80 mg is not enough because I can not handle the stress unfortunately but I need to take more medication.

I am waiting a call from my doctor or his secretary to help me with renewing the prescription.

I sink into misery and my train of thought is never ending. I guess I am making everything into a problem and then magnifying it. This illness is like a curse.

I thought maybe this is what people go through when they die but we are lucky to get the privilege of experiencing it while being alive. agree?

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I am eating the left over whole wheat pasta :frowning:

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I hope it happens fast. The weekend is approaching. You’ll be ok once you get your meds. :sunny:

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I was just thinking I am not sure if I need medication… because I am always depressed and empty. Is this the medication side effect. I do not know what it is to feel like a human anymore. :frowning:

the self pity train

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We are here for you anytime you need some virtual hugs :hugs:
Take care, you’ll be alright.

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It means gate in Japanese.

It means rice field.

:blush:

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i hope things get better… Do you feel symptoms worse during particular times of the day?

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There’s a difference between being depressed and empty and being psychotic. A big difference.

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Things can not get any different than this. This is it. I will wait for my death. :skull:
I want to escape the human life I guess.

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at least during psychosis I am entertained.

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Heavy words that couldn’t be more wrong.

Take that long walk you were talking about. See how you feel afterwards :wink:

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LOL I just came from a 3 hour walk. During the walk I almost cried on the road… and contemplated moving out and then realized I am trying to escape myself. Everything is like an obstacle + the emptiness is a big bonus.

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What meds are you on, besides geodon?
Imo, an antidepressant and mood stabilizer would be required for your current state…

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I take 300 mg Wellbutrin in the morning

  • 80 mg Geodon at night
  • L Theanine up to 600 mg a day
  • Sarcosine and vitamins.

I realize I am ill and this is not real but it feels so real?! I mean my misery is real based on false perception ?!

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As I said before, you might be borderline too. Your brain needs some rewiring. Your mental processes are self destructive. This is not just schizophrenia. Definitely see a psychologist, please !

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I don’t know how. What should I tell my doctor? I have an occupational therapist and a psychiatrist
What they do here is only check if you are a danger to yourself. My doctor does not know how to help me. He does not even have time. At least though I do not have to pay per visit and prescription

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I don’t know how the system works in your country. But search online for services like CBT or ACT, there must be some psychologists who offer this kind of therapy, although it might be costly…

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Have you thought about stopping the supplements? I had a bad interaction and quit them. Can’t Wellbutrin and Geodon cause anxiety or stimulation? I did not do well on Wellbutrin. I never tried Geodon.

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I am not sure I am anxious to see my doctor soon and figure out what to do.

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Did your prescription come through?

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