I think my main bad habits are just to gravitate towards comfort foods and binge eating.
On the flip side, controlling my eating habits is also kind of a bad habit too since that implies I’m not really going along with what is more natural to eat or what I would like to eat.
Otherwise, if I’m super stressed and not speaking up about my stressors then I get motor tics like tongue clicking and fidgeting in a chair.
I don’t get the motor tics anymore because I guess I learned to speak up more when people are stressing me. I have to learn that I have boundaries and there isn’t anything wrong with that. And people aren’t psychic so… kind of have to speak up to them.
Do you not have any friends or anyone to vent to or maybe to help you out? Some people like to feel useful in that way.
Otherwise at present I just listen to some music and try to slow my mind down and breathe more deeply.
Music drowns out all the irritating people in my life who I fail to realize will not understand me lol…
It feels unhealthy though long-term but it keeps me from dwelling on the negative stuff - too much…
Usually After One Night of Good Sleep, I’m Wired For Two Days.
And I Can’t Let The Universe Go.
I Speak With Insects. As Long as They Follow The Rules And Stay Outside, I’ll Sit And Talk All Day.
Last Night a Fairly Large Spider Visited Me.
Two Days Ago a Very LARGE Moth Was by The Front Door. Completely Still (As Always). Never Seen One That Large Before. Kinda Like Silence of The Lambs. Or That Aurora (Artist) Album Cover. I Think Debut Album. I Mean Not Human Like, But Still Large. (That Would Be Really Strange But Insanely Funny to See). People Watching And Such.
Three Days Ago, I Played With a Fairly Medium to Small Spider. He Was Hanging From His Thread Off The Rafters. And The Breeze Was Pushing Him Around. After He Caught My Attention. I Leaned Back And Watched Him Scurry About The Railing on The Porch.
I Grabbed an Empty Energy Drink Can And Started Putting it Near Him as He Would Wave at Me to Bring it Closer.
For About Twenty Minutes He Stayed Close By And We Kept Getting into Each Other’s Zones.
It Was Fun!.
Then As He Ran Off, A Large Wood Bee Arrived in a Sorta Frantic as if He Was Analyzing The Scent All Around The Area Where Me And The Spider Was Playing.
It Kinda Looked Like a Pup Checking Out The Scent.
I chew my cheeks. It’s bad because I think it is working a crown on one of my teeth loose. I’ll probably have to get dentures pretty soon. Luckily, I’ve inherited enough money that I can afford things like that. I also excavate my nose pretty good when I am alone in my room. I consume way too much sugar. I’m surprised I haven’t given myself type 2 diabetes.