Music is ruined

I feel like this disease has ruined music for me. I always think song lyrics pertain to me and the sounds alter my consciousness to the point where I start to get delusional. It sucks because I love music, but any music that might connect with me on a lyrical level I automatically assume is about me and it ruins the song.

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this should go away the longer you’re stable and then you can listen to songs that you used to think about were about you as something you conquered instead of feeling defeated…I’m sorry…i used to have delusions of reference with songs too…and movies.

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Yeah it seems like I have delusions of reference for everything. From songs to books, to movies. It’s probably just me being narrow minded thinking that everything has to be about me. I just can’t get out of my own perspective and because of that it is difficult to see that everything has nothing to do with me.

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I was very sad when I realized I wasn’t the center of the world’s attention anymore…it’s a lot to swallow…take baby steps in trying to not believe it.

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It’s more of a relief, actually. I’m hoping that I never was the center of the world’s attention in the first place.

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I ruin every song…it’s my schizophrenia. An example?

Elton John- “Cause losing everything, is like the Sun going down on me.”

So I would sing…

“Cause losing everything, is like my son going down on me.” :joy:

I can’t help it! My wife says I’ve destroyed dozens of songs for her over the years with my ridiculous lyrics.

Music, tv it at one point was all communicating directly with me. I’ve got better control over it now.

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It will go away with time and medications. BTW I feel the songs that hitted me the most during psychosis I could connect with the music more (maybe it´s the good side of it?idk), even after years of having it. It´s like a free magic mushroom trip.

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Would lyricless music help?
I can recommend some songs I like with no lyrics

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I used to be sensitive to sounds and songs too… meds and time helped me…

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I got into lo fi music for this reason

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Yes, also have this. Where voices would take a vocal, then using the singers voice to construct ’ a message’ for me. Very tiring. For this reason I now listen to ‘brown noise’ or nature sounds to calm me down. This helps a lot. When i make my own music, sometimes the voices want to stop me. But I refuse.

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I used to have delusions of reference with songs, videos and especially books. I thought I was hearing and/or reading the voice of God.

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Sometimes I’m afraid to play music because of spirits that show up.

And it went on daily for 14 years when one day I stopped believing in it.

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