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Music for a mood II

Music helps me express myself and my feelings. So these songs are for my moods and thoughts.

This song is about letting a toxic relationship keep coming back. And it leaves you feeling deja vu.

Past toxic friendships have been on my mind a lot lately. Mainly how they’ve shaped me

I can feel your love
Your temporary touch
It’s a hit and run
You go back there when you’re done
Don’t you want some more
'Cause I can feel your love

Maybe in time
When we’re both better at life
Daylight can open my eyes
And you’ll still be by my side
But meanwhile
I’ve got my contact high
You’ve got your powdered lies
We’ve got these summertime nights
Night by night
I let you eat me alive
I want you to eat me alive
I want you to eat me alive

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I really just feel like I don’t belong anywhere. Everywhere I try to fit I feel like an outsider. Tonight is tough.

I look myself in the face,
And whisper I’m in the wrong place,
Is there more to lose than gain,
If I go on my own again

Feeling pretty useless today. Not enough money, and too many needs.

Kinda wonder what I’m doing with my life and if it’ll go anywhere

Just like a whiskey bottle,
Drained on the floor,
She got no future,
Just a life to endure

Over time, I’ve come to see that I’m no better off.

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Very apathetic today and kinda over caring.

Also ■■■■ gender norms

This song makes me want to step on someone while wearing high heels

Kinda feel like doing something stupid and reckless

Come on
Humble my bones
With a cardiac

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Lots of anxiety lately and my DID keeps switching me out because of it

*Turn off the TV
It’s starting to freak me
Out it’s so loud
It’s like my ears are bleeding
What am I feeling?
Can’t look at the ceiling
The light is so bright
It’s like I’m overheating

This mind isn’t mine
Who am I to judge?
Oh I should be fine
But it’s all too much

I get overwhelmed so easily
My anxiety creeps inside of me
Makes it hard to breathe
What’s come over me
Feels like I’m somebody else

I get overwhelmed so easily
My anxiety keeps me silent
When I try to speak
What’s come over me
Feels like I’m somebody else
I get overwhelmed

All of these faces
Who don’t know what space is
And crowds are shut down
I’m overstimulated
Nobody gets it
They say I’m too sensitive
I can’t listen cause I’m eyeing the exits

This mind isn’t mine
Who am I to judge?
Oh, I should be fine
But it’s all too much

I get overwhelmed so easily
My anxiety creeps inside of me
Makes it hard to breathe
What’s come over me
Feels like I’m somebody else

I get overwhelmed so easily
My anxiety keeps me silent
When I try to speak
What’s come over me
Feels like I’m somebody else
I get overwhelmed

I get overwhelmed*

I feel so strangely apathetic lately
I feel fake and useless
Idk what I want anymore

I’m all talk with a thorn in my side
I got a real big heart that I’m willing to hide
You ask me what I want from this life
I said to make a lot of money and feel dead inside

My paranoia is a struggle lately

I feel like things are after me and staring at me and watching me

Like its scary but I also feel strangely apathetic about it

scare me,
scare me,
I’ve never been much for this world anyways
Through the creaking gates
So we knock on the door

It’s a rough night

And I’m holding on for dear life, won’t look down won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, 'cause I’m just holding on for tonight

I know nobody actually cares about me its all pity. My friends hate me my boyfriend hates me but they all feel too sorry for me to leave me to die.

But I love pretending that the lie is true

I know you’re just a white witch,
Putting that spell on me
You know I love the punishment,

So girl keep telling me

Lie lie lie lies
Yes tell me that you love me
Lie Lie Lie lies
Look deep into my eyes
Lie lie lie lies
Say there’s no one else above me

I’m the king of fools
Cause baby you’re the queen of white lies

This is what my head used to be like. I’m much improved now on abilify and daily cardio

I feel so hollow I just want to feel alive

slit your throat and die
and wake up the next day

I wanna scream
I wanna run
I’d die at 22
To feel alive at 21
It’s lukewarm
and stale bread
I want to put a magic bullet in my head