So my mom has been working less in June while the plants are growing and she’s been seeing more of my daily routine. Which is basically sleep or sit in any of three different places. If I feel like it maybe play computer or something for 30 mins. Then going back to doing nothing.
I love simplicity. I look at life like it’s a photograph. But she says “are you sure it’s not the cbd keeping you from doing anything”. Which I’ve now been on the CBD train for a while now and paranoia is very rare.
Yesterday was a terrible day. I got angry at everything but kept it all inside. Then I passed out at 6:30pm. Today I woke up pissy. Then I used CBD and voila. Everything changed. My mood improved to sarcastically positive.
I’m just tired of my moms little comments like “did you shower” did you do this” did you do that””. All ■■■■ she wants me to do. And while I get she is my MOM. I want her to realize she’s talking to a 35 year old man who was doing fantastic before his world came f ing crashing down around him.
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thats just one downside of living with parents, they will always see you as a child even if you are an adult because you are their child
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Start making the steps necessary to move out.
She’ll always treat you like that under her roof.
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Maybe shes just asking because of genuine concern for you.
Yeah it can feel offensive or intrusive. I dont live with my parents but my mom still texts me every week to see how im doing and sometimes yeah i get annoyed lol.
My thoughts is that she cares and might be annoying but you probably live rent free so homie take it easy 
Yeah what you want is independence
My moms the same and i find it very annoying… being schizophrenic requires the patience and forebearance of a saint sometimes.
Yeah I have been thinking a lot about moving out. I just need to make money to get out. So hopefully this job I’m starting is going to pan out.
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I hope it works out for you. She’s probably just worried about you. I think if you can gain independence that would be great. If not, try really hard to remember that as your mom, even if you’re an adult, she’s going to care about you and worry about you.
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Well the job didn’t work out. I had an interview yesterday and they invited me back today. Just to tell me when I got there I was not going to be hired. Drove 45 minutes for them to tell me. ■■■■■■■■.
Now I’m paranoid that I’m never going to be able to move or get a job.
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Did you tell them you have a mental illness?
Yes. I explained everything yesterday. I really was open and honest and she was really excited to have me. But I was supposed to meet the GM today. And when I walked in the manager that I talked to yesterday said they weren’t hiring cooks
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The GM did even tell me. I feel like if that’s how he is then I don’t want to work for him anyway
Sound they chicken out on you.
It just sucks. I can’t even get hired at a shitty Olive Garden.
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Yeah. The GM didn’t want a real ■■■■■■ open person working there. What a dick
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FedEx ground is willing to hire anyone.
I’d never be able to do that. I get paranoid when I’m rushed. I am looking for food prep jobs. Have 2 interviews Monday.
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some food prep jobs are high paste not to scary you.
I understand food service can be
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Have thought about a customer service job?
Edit one you could do at home.