Missing My Friend, Bad

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Sorry you lost your sister @Bowens . That must have been incredibly difficult, losing her to cancer at such a young age.

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Thanks Cragger. It was extremely difficult at the time. I don’t get very emotional these days, one of the few “benefits” of sz I have.

My sorrow has faded quite a bit. It’s not fresh like yours. I was heartbroken for years after her death. I’m sure your pain will become more manageable with time as well.

Wishing you the best.

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Thanks again @Bowens . My mom took me a year and a half to get over it, I can see this taking a while like that as well

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Sorry about your friend.

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Thanks @anon67051439 12345

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Sorry to hear, you must be a very warm and good person to miss a friend so much (if you are a heartless person, you wouldn’t have a grief like that)

I really miss the best friend of my life, he is alive but destroyed by his alcoholism and unbearable to be around. We went fishing in Norway, Sweden,wrote poetry together and took long trips on our bikes camping in the wilderness.

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I’m sorry you’re going through this cragger.

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I’m so sorry for your loss.

I lost a good friend a couple years ago, and while the griefs is less crushing now, I still have a heavy day when I see the face of someone who reminds me of him, or his mother writes on fb how much she misses him.

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Sorry for your loss @Cragger .it must be heartbreaking.i can relate.

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Sorry for your loss man.

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I see we share a grief @bluebutterfly . Dan was lost at times to drug abuse and alcoholism. When he was drunk, I couldn’t recognize him.

He and I played in bands together since we were 18, so it is a lifelong friendship.

It sounds like you and your friend had an excellent friendship. Writing poetry, camping. I miss canoe camping in the wilderness, but I’m not sure I could do it anymore

Thanks for sharing

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Thanks @Pikasaur . I’m sorry for your loss. I’m sure the grief is still wrenching at times, though I know it fades with time.

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Thank you @Loke @anon68444330 and @Larbear55755 I really appreciate your kind words. I hope I’m not missing anybody, I’m a little scatterbrained right now

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@Cragger so sorry :heart:

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Thanks @anon8091425

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My condolences @Cragger. Hang in there buddy!

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Thanks @anon97859349 . I’m hanging in there!

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This is the eulogy that I gave for Dan. I was shaking from head to toe, and thought my knees were going to buckle, speaking in front of the Gathering. I’m not even sure why I’m posting it. Hoping it helps me heal I suppose

*Dan and I loved having long debates about a variety of topics. Music, physics, philosophy. And sometimes we would argue… Just like brothers

Dan had a bit of a hard shell, but I am honoured to have seen behind that Veil. And what I found was a kind-hearted, incredibly generous, insanely funny and sensitive man

Dan asked me once not to idealize him when he was gone. I wouldn’t want to do that anyway.

I will remember Dan exactly as he was. A beautifully flawed Human Being.

Love you my friend*

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TW

I feel like it’s all my fault. Dan was suicidal for two and a half years, and I walked with him through hell. But then once he was out of the suicidal state of mind, we had a stupid fight and the next thing you know he’s gone.

We had had falling out like this before, and I just thought it was the same thing. Talk to you in 6 months I feel like if I had been there to support him, he never would have died.

I knew he still needed support, and I let him down.

I was pretty much the only person in the world that Dan had to talk to, and I withdrew because of a stupid argument. I feel like a f****** s***

People will say, don’t feel that way. But I do

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Sorry to hear that I had a close friend that I had known for over a decade di of a drug overdose about two years ago

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