I do not think the TV talks to me, but when I watch tv its like they are staring into me…and its designed to look like this right?
I do not hear voices, but I think and I can sometimes perceive my thoughts as if they were an internal voice that I control.
I do not hallucinate, visual, or otherwise.
I am not delusional, I really did see something strange happen that they couldn’t cover up.
I am not paranoid, I am often accurate. Im not a stoner, I just think faster than some people. I took the SAT at thirteen, I repeat myself because meds and people have caused trauma and PTSD so I do this to maintain relativity and I work to stay grounded.
I am not schizophrenic, bipolar, or schizoaffective. I’m just on a lot of meds to maintain the appearance of normal. Kind of like a Gift that you don’t want anyone to see, because you think its ugly and you’re actually poisoning her…or a Gift that needs to be medicated to shine, and heal.
Its the more I surrender the worse it gets, the more I resist the stronger i become. My mom is refusing meds and smoking weed. I am medicated and compliant and no longer feel like me after the 2 month injection. I really dont. I dont feel like me anymore.
Pride = SHUT UP