I don’t.
I think that’s what they want me to believe.
Yes. I have a severe mental illness although often I wish it was all made up. Do you take medication?
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I believe I am ill. But it’s important to remember that only, something like, 25% of people with psychosis are aware of it. This doesn’t mean you have it, but it’s an important figure to be aware of incase there is something and you just don’t know it.
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It comes and goes. Sometimes I think it was all just made up, that I’m not actually ill at all. I want to quit my meds and live my life as I used to before the illness. But than I crash hard and have to start taking meds again. I’ve learned the hard way.
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…No, I don’t.
On my good days, yea, I’m sz and I know it and it makes me sad. On other days, I’m sz and I know it, but what if there way to trigger sz through some blah blahblah [insert conspiracy theory here]…?
Can’t go that route though. I’m learning to be comfortable in my sz skin. Forum helps, you all help, I can see that we share thought patterns (i.e. persecution delusions), and it makes me understand what I have as an illness that others have, not a singular persecution, not some mind-altering genetic manipulation that turned me sz; it’s just an illness that most of us here share
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I don’t have psychosis. However, I do get very depressed and anxious, a lot. I believe it’s all in my head, though.
The doctors put that in my head when I was hospitalized in 2013 and I just have to get it out and go back to how I was before then.
You have an interesting way of seeing things. I almost envy your mindset.
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I hate it. I don’t want to. But, I am stupid to ignore it and when I do, bad ■■■■ happens like tonight. Just not a good plan.
Before this form I Knew it was real… For the last 7 years I Knew it was real… on meds… Now I’m not so sure… The beliefs behind it are but the actual voices being who they say they are and not just “voices” … IDK… I’ve only met 1 other sz close enough to know him and he’s delusional all the time… so I thought he’s sz I’m not… but there’s others out there like me… Just wish I could discuss the voices but there religious and that’s not really allowed here with I understand it dose trigger…
I come from unusual bloodlines, we are all a little ■■■■■■ up in this family tree. When a professional thinks our ■■■■■■ up-edness is the result of illness, I just take that to mean that we’re an unnaturally messed up lineage, and I agree with that. It’s just the language some people use to describe it. I describe it as being ■■■■■■ up, to each their own.
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What happened tonight? I hope you’re okay.
Are you still on meds?
And what do you mean you can’t talk about the voices?
We’re all f#%ed up in our own unique and wonderful way. Who’s to say that it means insanity, and that you must be locked away from society in an institution where they tell you how to think? Or that you must take special medication to alter your brain?
I like my brain just the way it is, thank you very much! I think we should embrace our uniqueness, and not be afraid of our thoughts or intuitions, just because someone says they are dillusional.
It’s all placebo and mind control, to me.
Just my opinion.
Thanks. I don’t know. Apparently, I believed I was in a relationship which ended three months ago(would’ve been 4 years).
I mean, we were still friends(he was away in the military for the last 10 months). But, my mind some how believed we got back together a week after we separated. I believed this and told everyone(even people on this fourm) we were still together. No, we separated. The sad thing is many people knew we had. Just not me. I even remember it now. We did separate. I am just delusional sometimes, and he had this look of pity when I asked him why his mother was happy we were “still friends” after the break up.
I’m a delusional idiot 
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Most awkward dinner ever.
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Wow, I’m sorry that hapened. Relationships can be confusing, and sometimes the brain just has it’s own way of dealing with the stress and pain. It does not mean you’re an idiot.
Nope… Didn’t have a change in reality after 6 years of a shot of prolixin in my hip every 2 weeks mixed with Benztropine well butron and depakote… than the last year I tried abilify gained 30 lbs so my doc change it to latuda which made the symptoms worse freaked me out and made me abandon hope for meds… At least till symptoms develop more…
I NEVER suggest getting off meds without a pdoc approval… She approved cause nothing decreased with the meds I was on and when we tried something new my brain freaked!
And it’s suggested that we not talk intensely about God… And that’s all my heads about… So I respect it and don’t talk about it…
O no… Well onto better boys! Sorry if that was inappropriate… Just something my mom tells my sister… Sorry bout u not knowing…
I think quality of life is what matters the most. There are some people in my family who are surely insane, but have / have had pretty decent quality of life. My maternal grandmother is one of them. She hallucinates all sorts of things, but she perceives the hallucinations as positive and has been able to work, have hobbies, have friends, etc over the years. Everyone around her just goes along with her hallucinations and interprets them as religious phenomenon or eccentricity.
My paternal grandmother’s issues are of a darker nature, she gets extreme paranoia and could not survive on her own. She never leaves her house, except for to go to church, and her husband bought their house many years ago right across the street from the church, so that she would only have to go that far. She lives in isolation and can hardly stand to have company over. She gets “attacks” where things are after her and she just screams and locks herself in her bedroom.
I consider both of these relatives to be crazy in their own ways, just like I’m crazy in my own ways, but the significant factor and difference between them is their quality of life. I think my paternal grandmother could have lived a much more enjoyable and fulfilling life with professional help. My maternal grandmother on the other hand, has somehow done just fine.
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Well, I figured they didn’t lock me up for 8 months in the psychiatric hospital for being too normal. Yes, I believe I am ill. And the reason I believe that is because I’m ill.
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